Monday, November 30, 2009
Saturday, November 28, 2009
I have always wondered to myself, there's got to be something wrong.
Now I know.
Seems like it was a name she gave.
I knew it. It's impossible that you're without a flaw.
Your initials told me so, Mr. J.
她可怜, 她伤心... 我也只能说, Honestly, I don't give a flying fuck.
是如此的贱 - 贱格的贱.
Friday, November 27, 2009
Shit. Land Law assignments. Goddamnit.
See, I've been slacking on my posts recently already and I've been so lazy to even think of something to blog about. So how can I come up with something to type into the empty document in front of me? All I see is the continuous blinking of the line thingy, laughing at my futile attempts to compose something out of nothingness. I'd be so amazed at myself if I can ever do it.
Maybe it's just my mind refusing to think. Refusing to comprehend a single shit of the never ending paragraphs. Or maybe it's just my hands refusing to lay themselves, caressing the smooth pages of my textbooks (Ya, I tried to make it sound more interesting). Someone take the Lost Symbol away from my hands and change it to Land textbooks, then maybe I'll consider.
I need an adrenaline rush. You know, the stuffs which might help in me creating some mess called bullshit, and hopefully I'll manage to pull my way through trying to convince my lecturer about my views on land registration. Honestly, I think two words are more than enough as opposed to the word limit allowed, rather than causing us the trouble to try to paraphrase passages/judgments, ripping that Thesaurus in our inner mind and all that beating around the bush crap. No comment. Short and simple, baby.
Screw it. I'm clicking the red x button. And rely on the phrase I've been telling myself: I'll try again tomorrow.
Yeah, wait till tomorrow is the 17th. And I'll watch how I die.
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Managed to catch Twilight: New Moon today. Thank youuuu for being so nice to line up early morning :D
A went to line up for the tix early morning at around 9 something and we only managed to get front row seats. Like, 4th row from the front? Wtf.
残忍, 无情, 这我都懂. 我比谁都更懂
Wednesday, November 25, 2009
Today, I looked back - I realised what a fool I was. And realised how much things have changed in the past 365 days. I was holding onto something which meant so much to me. Yet, it'd mean nothing to another.
Cuz if it did, he wouldn't have been so heartless.
I finally reminded myself of the girl I was a year ago.
I don't think I know her anymore... and I think I miss her.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
Monday, November 23, 2009
I know that that phrase had been quoted a gazillion times in this blog of mine. So I decided to make it a title of my post today.
This phrase had been bothering me since... it was too long ago that I couldn't really remember when anymore. Perhaps, a good 7 months ago? Approximately. Or rather I should be asking myself this instead, "A good 7 months had passed, so why still ask?" As I've mentioned before, this phrase was never meant for myself. Possibly, it was meant for somebody else. Who knows. Maybe.
Not like I can ever figure out why. Not like there even is any answer to that. And even if it does, I'll never be able to find out anyway.
It'll be a lie if I say it doesn't matter anymore. But, what can I do... and who am I to be able to do anything. I don't know when it started, but some time ago, it started to feel as if everything I had - for that short duration of time - was so subtle... so close to being imaginary. Or rather, it felt more like a dream. But how can a dream leave so many scars behind... I really don't know.
I'm happy the way I am now, I really am. There's nothing more I could ask for. I block these thoughts out of my mind, I'm trying very hard already and I'm doing just fine right now. But, how real could this be? Or is it merely me being in a frail attempt to convince myself that some people are no longer there, where it matters the most?
Cuz it still hurts even if it heals, like mad.
So it was Alton's birthday on Saturday night. My first time to Rootz, this newly opened club at the highest floor in Lot 10. It was really packed, but fortunately we had the private room all to ourselves. Quite a decent place I guess.
Alton was pissed drunk that night (when is he not), and I doubt he remembers how he got home. Haha, bloody hilarious video of him posted on Facebook. Poor dude.
Haha Ralph's flaming which got him puking hahaha!
Napet. Who sleeps in the club :/
Ah, hot hunks in the girls toilet.
Dave was lining up halfway till they decided to change venue cuz the queue was too long :((
Julz cool haircut. Not exactly a haircut but yea...
Julz calls this ecstasy pose haha wtf.
Alcoholic in action!
The girlsssss, just a small bit of them haha.
The rest of the pictures will be uploaded on Facebook, as usual. So yea, that wrapped up the night. Guess I won't be partying anymore for some time (at least not as often as I did), and hopefully, it'll last :)
Saturday, November 21, 2009
It was another singing session immediately after class yesterday. I swear, we sang like nobody's business. Like, almost 6 hours I think wtf. Well, it kinda became a chatting session towards the end about the jerks in our lives. Yes, jerks. Oh well.
Anyway, thanks babe, for the sheep! Well, she saw my sheep and said it was too cute and lonely. So she decided to buy another one to keep it company. Sorry babe, they kinda parted again. Only the white one you bought is with me now heheh. The other one is well...somewhere else :)
Haha sorry, couldn't help it.
Lifeless girl who still goes on Facebook and blogs in the KTV :P
The pair of baby sheeps :)
I love my sheeps :3
Let's hope tonight's gonna be a good good night. It's been quite a while :D
Friday, November 20, 2009
Finally updated the pics on Facebook! Ugh. I procrastinated far too long. Assignments! They're coming after me soon, real soon. And I'm perpetually hungry nowadays. That's bad.
Class is gonna commence in 8 hours' time. This is annoying. As much as I despise attending 8am classes, it really leaves me with no choice. Looks like it's time for another Spot the Difference session again huh.
Quote Dave: Take Chinese newspapers. They seem to be a lot harder. Then we can kill more time.
Hahahaha he's always so sarcastic! x)
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
Tuesday, November 17, 2009
Had a casual dinner with some family and friends. It was a really enjoyable dinner, (though we were late), but I really had fun that day. We had lots of laughs and talked more than we ever did. Too bad time had to pass so quickly :(
The Cousin was there, of course. Haha bitch, I know you like this pic.
The sepets hahaha x)
Pictures will be uploaded on Facebook soon :-)
Ah, I've officially left the teens behind. Now where's my present? :P
Thanks to all those who texted/called to wish me that night. Hope I didn't miss out on anyone in replying! I'm really glad I received them from all those that mattered, none of them being missing. Okay I admit, I secretly removed the notification thing from Facebook where it'll remind all my friends about my birthday hahaha.
Thanks to you who called from UK, knowing that I miss you so much. Now, let's hope that my birthday present will not become a Valentines' Day present (knowing your speed). I really wished you were here that night :(
Thanks to you who came all the way to send me my pressie, I was really surprised. I'm sorry now that she wants to skin you already hahaha. (P.S. Holly will always love Gerry haha wtf)
Thanks to you who texted. A simple text, but it was more than enough. I really never expected it.
Thanks to you for the crazy surprise which almost gave me a heart attack. You're more than I can ask for.
P.S. Dear Cousin, I'm still waiting for my sheep. No thanks to you yet till I see my sheep :P
P.P.S Thanks for everything, really :3
I'm too lazy to type already. My show is waiting. Tata.
Sunday, November 15, 2009
Saturday, November 14, 2009
- 若那一刻从来我不哭, 让他知道我可以很好.
Had a blasting good night last night. Had an early birthday celebration with the Cousin, Mom and her colleagues (who the Couz and I also happen to know) cuz there were quite a few November babies.
On an unrelated note, yes - if you happen to be one of those who have forgotten that it's my birthday month... well, it sucks to be you.
Anyway, yea. It was a really really enjoyable night and I'm pretty sure everyone had a blast, judging from the noise made. And sigh, the Cousin did it again. 3 times this time, or was it twice? God bless her. I think it's became a norm for her already every time we sing.
Let's hope this is right.
Friday, November 13, 2009
Maybe I do.
When I finally walk out from the world where he was everything and absolutely everything.
Where everything was nothing but a game.
I'm sorry I can't tell you that I've left him behind in my past, that he's no longer there.
Cuz I can't tell you something that ain't true.
I've tried finding excuses. I've tried searching for flaws.
But you've failed me.
How can I ever let myself miss out on a person like you?
Thursday, November 12, 2009
Hmm, another spontaneous after class activity huh? It was one of the great singing session I've had with friends It's been so long since I've managed to sing like this with friends heh :D:D
We really should do this more often heheh. No, not the toilet. The singing, I mean.
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
When I told myself,
It's Christmas again.
It's almost a year already.
How fast time flies.
How can it ever be the same Christmas,
Monday, November 09, 2009
Super spontaneous trip to Genting. Yes, Genting. Like immediately right when lecture ended, we were bored and decided to get up there. Went home, changed, grabbed the camera and off we went.
Didn't take us long to reach, and believe it or not, it was my first time taking the cable car up to Genting (the very virgin-type first time was a few years ago when I had to take the cable car down to the bus station from Genting).
The weather was... rather dramatic. It was as if it was going through the time of the month, seriously. On our way up, it was raining and when we reached, it stopped. Then it started drizzling and stopped again. Then it started raining (again) and stopped (bloody hell again) and eventually started raining cats and dogs! It's really confusing. Cuz the rides won't be operating under the rain, so it's pretty annoying when you line up for the ride and when it's finally your turn, it starts to rain and you get turned away. Bloody shit.
But nevertheless, we still managed to catch a few rides that we wanted (fortunately) and had LOADS of fun. Well, some stupid things that you do really gives you lots of fun sometimes. Like, really.
I have a strong feeling, that this is -not- going to be our last visit there heheh :3
Yea, I fled -that- far away.
In the teacup thingy.
I think this was during the pirate ship ride haha.
Greedy pig :P
Haha it was really foggy this afternoon that it felt like we were in dreamland wtf.
Under the shelter when it was raining.
Tryna be cool :P
Wakaka. We purposely did a pose like this to fit a picture inside hahaha. I feel so anal.
And that was our trip babeh :D
让她跌到, 让她哭泣, 让她一个人疗伤,
Who watched her fall, let her cry, let her get back up on her own,
And let her be so afraid of that path again?
Afraid that she might fall again like she did.
Who turned such innocence
to a line which she's too afraid to cross?
Sunday, November 08, 2009
When you're gone, the pieces of my heart are missing you.
When you're gone, the face I came to know is missing too.
I miss you.
我害怕, 伤害自己, 伤害你.
You're too good to be true.
Saturday, November 07, 2009
Tonight was the first time I set foot on Banting (a town located near Klang) for some reasons. It wasn't a long ride, reached there in no time and met up with PL. We spent quite some time at Banting and I swear, that girl has no faith in that place despite being an inhabitant of the place herself. Hahaha wtf.
Yam cha-ed at Banting, still and left back for KL at around 11 something. A very, very spontaneous trip to catch a movie at MV (which later on failed cuz every show had already started when we got there). After leaving MV, we decided to get back into MV again for karaoke wtf. Try beating that kinda spontaneous.
Wait till you see how it is at 3 am. Completely creepy. Yes, we left that late.
You're most probably one of the sweetest thing I've met.
But I can't accept a gift like that.
A gift like you.
hands are shaking cold,
Your hands are mine to hold.
Friday, November 06, 2009
It's like taking a ride to an unknown destination, to a place I'm so strange to.
Part of me refused to get off the ride, from my territory where I'd feel safe in.
Where I could get off and hop on back anytime I wished.
Where I could run away from the past I've been dwelling in.
But should I forget everything and take off on another ride
Where I could possibly find my way?
So while I'm still contemplating,
Let me, just let me continue my ride.
Thursday, November 05, 2009
Could you, drive me somewhere far away,
And let me lean on your shoulder without saying a word
So that I could cry my heart out?
For all those that's been bothering me so much.
So much that it's so bloody sickening.
I can't take it, really. I need to flee from this.
And finally be who I really am, doing what I really want.
And not be tied up, like a bird with no wings.
I'd kill myself.
To dry her eyes, broken inside.
Wednesday, November 04, 2009
People say it's best to enjoy this part right here.
I just can't.
I can't put myself into this.
And escape reality for a bit.
From my reality. From your reality.
When we could walk on and on,
talking about all the different things we see.
And laugh about absolutely nothing.
I'm sorry I can't show you my dream, dear.
Cuz I can't remember where I lost it.
But maybe, just maybe.
I could show you
the demons of my past which I've never mentioned of.
Of what has become of me.
Tuesday, November 03, 2009
No, it ain't happening anymore. Really.
I'm so sick of this, so damn sick of this.
It's always never good enough.
Not for the third time already.
And I definitely don't want history to repeat itself again.
When I once loved so much.
I don't know, but don't blame me if one day you turn around,
And I'm not there anymore.
Monday, November 02, 2009
Could you tell me,
If I set foot into that deep abyss,
Would I fall hard and go back to what I have become,
Or would I find light in the darkness encapsulating me?
Could you give me an answer to that?
Sometimes, I feel like letting myself go, and just fall - a free fall.
But it hurts too much and I'm too afraid already.
I just know it won't.
I know this, I know this alphabet.
A little bit too well actually.
So before the borderlines are crossed
And before too little becomes too much
Let's just say goodbye.
Cuz I won't let it happen to me for the third time anymore.
Sunday, November 01, 2009
Went for All American Rejects' concert at Bukit Jalil last night. A very spontaneous one actually. Didn't intend to go initially, but ended up going with the Cousin. Honestly, the only song which I can sing entirely was just Move Along hahaha! Thus explaining the desperate efforts that Adelin and I made to sing to the songs, which we knew nothing but the Chorus parts. Oh well, effort is good :3
Couldn't see much (due to the crazy crowd). So much for being short. Meh. And that top was the closest thing to Halloween that I have. Double meh. Oh well.
Also met Jia Xin there with her sweetheart. But I doubt she'd let me post that pic up so yea. I'll just mention her HAHAHA. It's been quite a while since we've met, despite the fact that we're in the same uni. I think the last time we met was during the picnic trip we had before Chingy left.
With the Cousin.
The Cousin and her friends - Bryce and Nick :-)
Adelin, Jo-Shua and Jamie.
It was supposedly a couple shot when Adelin insisted she wanted to be in the picture. Funny girl haha.
Dave and I were bored while waiting. Heh.
No, we weren't kicking any stranger x)
Adelin, my also-as-short partner :P
Cheater. Carried by Jin.
The Cousin again :3
The group of us!
Amanda, Jamie, Jo-Shua, Dave and J.
T'was an enjoyable night when my legs felt so tired even though I was wearing flats heh. It was a good experience when the group of us uni mates come out for a concert and enjoy ourselves. We should do this more often, if we could :-)
Move along, move along
Just to make it through.