You know I would die here without you.

Haha this is damn cute ♥

Am suddenly loving this song :)

Okay, I know the video caption here is a bit... off. But yeah, nice song :)

All that I'm after is a life full of laughter,
As long as I'm laughing with you.

I'm thinking that all that still matters
is love ever after.

Without you God knows what I'm gonna do,
Cuz I know that there's no life after you.

And now I know, that life doesn't always go my way.

Would silence be a better path to take?

And just let it eat me up slowly.

It'll just be as hard on me anyway.

I could be chasing but my time would be wasted.

Exams are just around the corner and I have no effing idea about Company law. Ugh. Well, except for some shareholders nonsense. Not like it will help much. Bah. And the Evidence textbook seemed slightly easier to study (cuz the words stuffed into one page are slightly lesser compared to those in other textbooks), that was the only reason why I actually decided to start studying.

Sigh. I'm so screwed. Was down with a terrible sore throat, flu and cough a week plus ago. And now, my left eye is bloody down with an allergy. Guess I'm stuck with glasses for quite a bit everyday now. Feels as if it's swollen, but it seems perfectly fine from the outside. Damn. And my mom scared the shit outta me saying its maggots. Or some weird eggs inside my eye. Very nice of her. And my dad just told me to keep sleeping.

T___________________T

FML.

Sigh. I think it's time to seek some attention again. Haha.

Oh, and my phone is officially dead. I loved it so much. And all my stuffs inside. Oh the sadness. *drama betul*

And I don't know how I can do without.

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind,

For me it happens all the time.



Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.

Sometimes, I'm just so sick of this.

*

Am loving this song. I've been looping it since forever. And I have no idea why the Secret Lover doesn't like it at all T_______________T

I should know better but that's just not the case.

There are just times when you'd want to disappear to a place where nobody could possibly find you. And just chill, with music blasting through my earphones and a bottle of beer in hand. A free flow of whiskey would be more preferable though. Or maybe bacardi. But right now, I would settle for even beer. And possibly, by the beach with a few eye candy walking past with those six packs.

Just, plain disappear to a place where nobody knows of my existence.

And sometimes I find myself wondering just how did I get myself into this mess. When I thought I've learnt not to fall anymore. Guess I lost control with something we call a heart. Sometimes, I'm such a big mess and I have no idea how to solve it.

And that's when it starts to hurt.

You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay.

I guess, there's nothing left for me to say.

Or rather, there's no point in me saying anything else.

Or feeling anything, if it matters.

你累积给的伤害我是真的很难释怀．

After all, it's just till September.

Till I'm gone, for good.

Good riddance.

无奈是两手相拥
也是觉得冰冻.

There's a she wolf in disguise.

Does this happen to you?

Cuz it happens to me all the time, especially when we have 8am classes. Seriously, 8am classes should be made a sin. Why can't they ever consider that?

I stay up all night doing completely nothing at all. And I'll always regret it the next day, without fail. Yet, I still continue this screwed up sleeping pattern regardless. Don't ask me why. It just... happens.

Why oh why must time pass so quickly? It's like exams are coming nearer and nearer to me. I'm feeling the stress already and doing completely nothing about it. Save me.

And last but not least,

Happy Mothers' Day

to all mothers in the world. Have a great day today, with lots of love :)

I wanna dance, I wanna dance in the light.

12 more days till you're home ♥

Love, let's not give up - not now at least.
We've held onto this belief for far too long.
Now when we're almost there,
Let's not turn back.

This bad romance, this cold heart,
A perfection so creepy that caught me off guard.
It's a habit I won't want to stop.
I'd relapse if I do.
Cuz you're my drug, and my only possible cure.

My love,
Close your eyes and we'll try working on impulse.
An impulse called spontaneity,
When we're free from all constraints.
Just you and I.

This beautiful mess,
Called our deliberate mistake,
Where nobody understands the brutal beauty in it.

Love, we just ain't gonna lose this.
Cuz a love like this,
We don't come across it all the time.

A breathtakingly beautiful scene of New York :)

谁都知双手可紧扣
不依不舍的背后

这个信念有多温柔

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all.

You know how Queen B (Blair Waldorf) never loses her throne?



Yeah, that. Me too.

And no replacements, like seriously.

Give me some time, I'll think of something.

P/s. I'll never settle for the faulty alarm clock :P

话总说不清楚, 该怎么明了?

- 旧帐总翻不完, 谁无理取闹?

Fell in love with this song already the first time I heard it on the radio. There are English subtitles in this video, but mind the English translations. Let's just say, they're not exactly the best translations you have around :)

背对背包拥抱 (Back to Back Hug) - JJ 林俊杰 (JJ Lin)

One of the good emo songs they still have around nowadays. It has a very sad and lonely rhythm to it, somehow. Try sparing 4 minutes and listen to it :) ♥ ♥

既然可以拥抱
就不要轻易放掉

While we can still hug
Let's not give it up so easily.

Cuz I don't wanna wait till time catches up with me,
Cuz it'll be too late by the time I turn back.

I don't wanna lose this race.
Cuz I've been told that
Nobody wins a race against Time.

So I'd steal any minute or second that I could have with you.
Cuz I'm running out of time,
And I need you with me.

因为我不想
我们的爱情来不及变老
就被葬送在风火的玩笑.

And so I surrendered just to hear your voice.

As mentioned earlier, I have been terribly sick for the past 4 days already. As in, terribly sick. It's been such a long while since I've last been sick like this. Really. It feels as if all energy has been drained out of me and my life has been sucked outta my soul. Drama much but yeah. I've been coughing my lungs out, my nose has been running a marathon and my throat is enjoying being a bitch. To add to that, I've been constantly sweating and feeling horrendously cold at the same time. Talk about annoying.

I'm so sick I can't even drag my ass out of the house. So what have I been doing? No, not Facebook. But I've finally made time to catch up on my HIMYM (How I Met Your Mother) series. Have always been out of time to watch it and finally, I've finished the whole of Season 3 approximately 2 minutes ago.

A really nice picture of them and man I love Barney :)

Now for Season 4.

Sigh there's 8am class tomorrow. Can I not go? Pretty please? :(

Thanks for loving me, cuz you're doing it perfectly.

I am now officially sick. Well technically, I've been sick for the past 3 days already. Am down with a very bad sore throat, horrible cough and a very annoying flu. Have been spam eating all sorts of medicines and bugging people if I would die after eating everything one shot haha wtf.

Somehow, I engaged myself into a few rather attention seeking activities the minute I'm sick. And well, the only people who layan-ed me were Pei Ling and the Secret Lover. Well, I did try to seek attention from two other people but it was a major fail haha. My dad hung up before I could start seeking attention and A replied that he's in the gym along with a ttyl. Big time fail.

Pei Ling was the nice one who brought me to eat porridge when I was craving for it (besides the fact that she was waiting for my voice to change so that she can laugh at it) and the Secret Lover actually bothered telling me what and what not to do.

ĴØŇ says:
*wahh someone's finally sick huhu
*poor u
*too bad im not here if nt MAYBE can take care of u
*hahaha

kamen says:
*what finally. u sound so happy T_________T
*i damn kelian ok

ĴØŇ says:
*haiyo i not there ma
*so i cant do much

kamen says:
*do you think i'll die
*if i take panadol and pain killer and cough meds and the chinese thing?

ĴØŇ says:
*i edi told u dun take panadol
*pain killer n cough meds can la
*dun take western mix wid chinese

kamen says:
*pain killer is worse than panadol
*but i edi took chinese n the cough meds
*just haven take painkiller n panadol

ĴØŇ says:
*lol then i will pray for u
*T>T
*hahahaha

HAHAHA. Damn funny, he didn't know how else to layan anymore and he resorted to that. Sigh. I hate being sick. I've missed out on two parties on two consecutive nights already due to the horrible state that I am in. One on Thursday and another on Friday. Damn.

I really hate being sick :(

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor.

In dire need of alcohol right now. Maybe, if I'm drunk enough, I might be able to get some eye shut tonight. Damn. I'm losing control, of myself - of everything. Let's just not talk about this, I'm pathetic enough already.

I've tried. I really did, very hard actually.

Someone I knew once told me,

That words can't hurt you unless you let them to.

I guess, I'm making myself very much vulnerable this time.

Oh this feeling is horrible,

When I can cry no tear when it is bleeding inside.

But why did you have to break me that way?

My words, my love, and all I had to give,
They are not worthless,
let alone thrash.

At least lie to me and tell me they're not.

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now.

Maybe, I should drink to my liver's demise tonight. Then again being drunk wasn't exactly such a great experience I had.

But I guess I'd rather go through that than be in this pain sober.

My mind, it's too fucking sober.

Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control.

and I wonder if I ever cross your mind,

for me it happens all the time.

así te amo porque no sé amar de otra manera

- so I love you because I know no other way.

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now.

Yesterday, we decided to all go on a roadtrip to the beach in Port Dickson! So each of us pulled our asses off our beds way too early in the morning and met up near my place around 8 or 9 something for breakfast. Then, we left at 11am and about almost one hour later, we finally reached our destination.

In the car

The weather was great, too great in fact. The sun was so crazily hot during the afternoon. The day was awesome. With some booze, ice cream, some snacks and great company, anything would be extremely fun. And not forgetting the camwhoring of course!

While waiting for them to be done with their business in the car.

Seannyboy!!



The woman's favourite picture of the day.



The beach!

You'll be surprised how high the tide could be later during the evening.



I like this shot :)



What are you boys checking out? :P

The Drama Queen.



Miki the oddball HAHA.



When everyone was sucking up to Aaron, for some reasons haha.

Us playing around the beach before ahem, getting intoxicated.

Ah, and then came the intoxication part. I swear, we were all gone for a (rather long) moment. Pei Ling was the first to pass out and the last to wake up HAHA! And Anthony, it was just epic. And I will NOT forget how Miki laughs when she's high HAHA.

Oh, and I remember making a stupid call all the way to NYC just to hear "Ok, I'm jealous" from the Secret Lover. That was the only part of the conversation which I vaguely remembered haha T________________T

PL passed out.



Ant... HAHAHA!

Sean and Imran, don't be deceived by their expressions.
They were far from sober :P

And we got bloody conned by the burger stall nearby. But damn, it tasted good for some reasons. We stayed there till sunset and it was about to rain already. Finally reached KL at about 11pm and we were all half dead already. It was a day well spent indeed. Definitely a day which will be stuck in my head for quite some time ;-)

Twilight, literally.

More pictures in Facebook. Way too much for me to upload on Blogger already.

Am currently very much sunburnt and tanned. If you look carefully, I now have a red patch right in the middle my nose. Sunblock didn't help. And I accidentally slept on my favourite pair of shades, and obviously they broke *goes into dramatic wailing mode* T___________T

Let's have more of this. Next week perhaps? :D

Wake up in the morning feeling like P.Diddy.

♥ ♥ ♥



Yea you smelly buntut kentut!

Haha damnnn. I can never stop laughing at that name. I have no idea how I came up with it already. Perhaps cuz they rhyme :P

Actually, the title of this post is pretty much ironic, really. Some pig I know don't exactly wake up in the morning. They sleep back like nobody's business (you know what pigs do...). Pulling off what you call a Florence*.

*To those who have no idea what "pulling a Florence" is, it means that the performer of the act is sleeping like a log and is immune to all sorts of electronic devices (no, it is not on silent mode) and even if woken up, will continue their pursuit in slumber till kingdom comes.


Now I think there would be a synonym to it already. Pulling a Jon ;-)

I've loved you forever in lifetimes before.

"What is she doing?"

"Facebook. Heehee."

"Who's your love?"

"Her. Heehee"

戦う。最後まで戦う。
ね、恋
一緒に戦いましょう？

And I can't imagine two worlds spinning apart come together eventually,
And when we finally meet, I'll know it's right.
I'll be at the end of my restless road,
But this journey, it was worth the fight.
To be with you.

To be with you, there's nothing I wouldn't do.

But you broke me, now I can't feel anything.

Loving this song.

我受够了等待, 你所谓的安排
说的未来到底多久才来
总是要来不及, 才知道我可爱
我想依赖而你却都不在

I've had enough of waiting,
your so called plannings
When will the future that we've been talking about come?
It's always too late for you to appreciate things,
You were never there
every time I needed to lean on you.

应该开心的地带, 你给的全是空白
一个人假日发呆找不到人陪我看海
你累积给的伤害 我是真的很难释怀

We were suppose to be all sweet and happy,
but all you gave was just an empty void.
Staring into space alone during a holiday,
When I couldn't find anyone to spend time with me.
I really can't seem to get over
The hurt and wounds you gave.

你总是要我乖慢慢计划将来
我的眼泪却一直掉下来
被你亲手缓缓推入悬崖

You always wanted me to be good
And wait for you as you plan slowly.
But my tears just can't stop falling.
It's like you're gradually pushing me off the cliff.

而我对你的期待 被你一次次摔坏
已经碎成太多块 要怎么拼凑跟重来

And my hopes on you,
you've broke them over and over again.
How do I put them back together
Once they've been broken into far too many pieces?

What's left there for me to say, when this song has said everything?

I can't even convince myself.

I do not want to fall to that stage where I won't care anymore.

Cuz I'm drifting off.

Please, don't let me.

断了的弦 再怎么练
我的感觉,你已听不见
再怎么接 音都不对

But I can't help but want you more.

It's funny how shit happens and life is treating me slightly better at the same time. Just that, there are times when I have to choose. It's like I have a dosage of fun, and face the music later on. Ironic, isn't it?

And not forgetting, my constant denial about exams coming nearer and nearer.

Oh and tonight, it was such a fun night. Didn't expect it to turn out this way, but it was one hella night actually. I am greatly tempted to post Pei Ling's pic here in this post, but nah, revenge is sweet when you're seeking it. But when it comes to a woman's revenge? I'll never wanna have a dose of that, ever :P

*

T'was great having you wake me up in the morning,
when I'm beyond reluctant in waking up.

:)