I'm about to lose my mind, you've been gone for so long.

Funny how this Christmas, penguin toys seem to be everywhere and every shop suddenly decides to sell penguins.

Gets me wondering whether is it part of a joke played on me.

To constantly remind me effortlessly.

Remember how we were looking for penguin toys everywhere and we couldn't find them?

And now, they're everywhere.

As if they're sneering at how I lost so much, at how penguins would now be past tense.

So messed up, everything is.

My head hurts.

When will it ever stop spinning?