Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Or am I just a roadblock in your way?

do you know how it feels,
to be the last in the priority and it doesn't even feel like one anymore?

do you know how it feels,
to be so sick of excuses you've given up hope?

do you know how it feels,
to be constantly waiting day and night for nothingness?

do you know how it feels,
to be so lonely even though you're with people?

do you know how it feels,
to be giving chances just to be let down again?

do you know how it feels,
to be making an effort and not knowing whether it's worth it or not?

do you know how it feels,
to be having doubts and nobody is there to even hear you out?

could you teach me how to do what you have done?
or be cold like you are?


Tuesday, April 26, 2011

i'm starting to have doubts.

is this really worth the fight?

Monday, April 25, 2011


Over the past weekend, I started rewatching this show all over again. If you're above 17 and watches Hong Kong dramas, you'll probably know of this show because it was quite a popular show back then in 2004.

Theme Song for TVB drama, War and Beauty.

I've watched this show 3 times already and well, it's my 4th time watching it this time. (Note that I never rewatch my shows) I remember I used to love this show so much I never missed a single episode and spent sleepless nights watching it. And if you've watched this show, I'm quite sure you'd love this theme song :)

But it had such a sad ending at episode 30 because almost everyone ends up dying! I hated Gigi Lai in this show. She was so annoying! But then again, I guess she's acted her part well enough to make people hate her and eventually winning the awards that year itself for Best Actress. Needless to say, I supported Charmaine all the way. She is so cute laaaa.

As for those who are completely clueless as to what I'm talking about, this show revolves among 4 women, who are the Emperor's concubines each scheming their way for various reasons - some to gain power and control, and some to plot revenge. At the same time being involved with scandals with 2 men in the Imperial City which led to their plot to escape the castle. In the end, all died but for two who managed to escape. Really, it's a show worth watching regardless of whether you're a couch potato or not.

So if you're one of those with nothing to do at home rotting everyday, do try to give this show a try :)


Wednesday, April 20, 2011

So picking up the pieces now where to begin?

do people only learn to appreciate things once they're gone?

isn't that a little too late by then?

but then again, sometimes they might prefer it to be gone.

who knows.

perhaps, we've gone too far that we can never go back to how it was in the past anymore...

I thought it felt right but that right was wrong.


You hinted that you want to leave,
The heart is not there anymore.


Turning my back to walk away, can't bear to say goodbye,
It was just a mistake when the seagull and fish fell in love,
There was always a gap in our love and we can't go back anymore,
The wait will only amount to more hurt.
The passion is not there anymore and
I can't force a smile on you anymore.


How to mend a broken statue?
How to mend a broken love?
Just that everything ended too quickly that it's hard to accept.

面向海风, 咸咸的爱

What hope is hidden in the shell?
I don't think we're even bothered anymore.
Facing the salty sea breeze,
I couldn't feel any future anymore if this goes on.

Song: 珊瑚海 by Jay Chou ft. Lara.







Sunday, April 17, 2011

Sitting in an empty room, trying to forget the past.

Down with flu, sore throat and cough - again.

So yeap, this shall be a cheating post with a vain snapshot of myself.

Times flies. In a blink of an eye, it's mid April already.

And just about time for my lovelies to be home soon. I've missed them enough.

Friday, April 15, 2011

Waiting for the end.

Waiting for the end to come,

Wishing I had strength to stand,
This is not what I had planned,
It's out of my control.

Sitting in an empty room,
Trying to forget the past,
This was never meant to last,
I wish it wasn't so.

What was left when that fire was gone?
I thought it felt right but that right was wrong,
All caught up in the eye of the storm
And trying to figure out what it's like moving on.

And I don't even know what kind of things I've said,
My mouth kept moving and my mind went dead.
So picking up the pieces, now where to begin?

- Waiting For The End by Linkin Park

Thursday, April 14, 2011

You're so hypnotizing.

I know this is super mainstream but yeah, a song I have been looping for some days.

Ignore the lyrics. Ignore the mainstream factor. Ignore the video itself (pretty sick and disturbing actually... it's just weird).

But do try listening to the song :)

E.T. - Katy Perry ft. Kanye West

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Kenangan Terindah.

aku yang lemah tanpamu.
aku yang rentan kerana
cinta yang telah hilang darimu yang mampu menyanjungku.

bila yang tertulis untukku adalah yang terbaik untukmu
kan ku jadikan kau kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku
namun takkan mudah bagiku meninggalkan jejak hidupmu
yang telah terukir abadi sebagai kenangan yang terindah.

- Kenangan Terindah by Samsons.

The one Indonesian song that I will never ever get sick of listening to.

wait for me. don't go too fast.

i can't catch up.

so wait for me, will you?

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

See somehow I can't forget you after all that we have been through.


I guess I should just leave it alone.

And see where it goes.

After all, it's only bothering me. Nobody else.

And not like that matters anyway.

I'll get used to it. Yeah, I will.

I just wanna sleep.

Then I won't have to face this overwhelming darkness.

The darkness of being fully awake.

我, 真的能无所谓吗?



亲爱的, 为什么?

Would it be different if I gave you time?

Monday, April 11, 2011

Today I don't feel like doing anything, I just wanna lay in my bed.

This is what happens to me, like all the time!

Every. Single. Day.

So annoying T______________T


- 只是美丽的独秀太折磨.

Welcome to my work space :)

Yes, there's a Facebook tab constantly opened. Don't lie saying that you don't do the same. Meh.


Something is bugging me recently, and I can't figure out what. No, not work but something inside me feels weird. Or maybe it's just me being me. I really don't know.

I don't even know what I want out of it. It's probably just a phase.

Yeah, let's hope so...

Friday, April 08, 2011

Maybe this is wishful thinking, probably mindless dreaming.

why must times change?

Sunday, April 03, 2011

Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday.


the rain has stopped.

and the sun is shining back again.

let's hope this continues.