越吻越伤心.

问你哪一出好戏最近会令人提提神，
但换来连场沉默如像跟我嬉笑不再吸引.

问你距我太远可不可以坐更近,
但你似听见了某个极无聊奇闻.

问你有否想起你我是哪样成为情人,
但换来连场沉默如像早觉得我不再吸引.

越问越伤心
仍然胡涂是我过份,
明明知道彼此不再情深,
何必追问远近？

- 越吻越伤心 by William So.

We'll just keep running from tomorrow with our lips locked.

So how was your Valentines' Day? Mine was just a simple dinner (which kinda ended up unplanned for) and with an awesome afternoon preceding it.

Smelly picked me around 12ish for lunch and we went shopping after that! Ooh, and our chocolate fondue that afternoon! Well, how could Valentines be without flowers and chocolate hmm? ;-)

Just an ordinary day with that tad bit of special-ness to it when you see everyone else doing the same thing. Well, it's not just one day in the year when you could celebrate your love for each other, right? Just another excuse to be spending money (ohmygod) and dressing up nicely for dinner and all. Or rather, another excuse for shop owners to be making great business.

But then again, it feels great to be so comfortable with one another celebrating this very day together, Smelly :)

The only successful shot of the many failed ones taken during dinner.

"the Pig digging into her food like one."

Complimentary Polaroid for each table apparently :)

Let's celebrate not just one day,
but 364 of it together.
Shall we need no special occasion,
to celebrate this love we have.

i'm lucky we're in love in every way.

Gee!

Happy Valentines' people!!

The blogger is currently busy so hang on for a short moment. And meanwhile in case you are bored, do entertain yourself with this:

Gee - (SNSD) Girls' Generation

They are sooooooo cute! :3

In case you're wondering, I like the girl in green :)

And IF you have an itchy butt (like me) and want to learn the dance, this is the video of their dance version:

Have fun! Mwahhhh!

I promised I'd never sing of love if it does not exist.
But darling, you are the only exception.

- The Only Exception, Paramore.

I could be all that you need if you let me try.

sometimes, i sit and wonder how i would be if you never came along.

or how you would be doing if i've never crossed your path.

then i wonder which star brought you to me. just at the right time at the right place. now that i look back, it's funny how things have turned out. how we missed out on that few years with each other, just to catch up again with it now.

i love the many random things that we do together, the stupid habits that we have together, the many similarities we have despite our differences together, the dumb fights we have together, how you'd hug me when i snuggle close to you under the blankie together, and how you would know what's in my head by just a smile - i love it when we are together.

Cuz nobody could be better than us together :)

You set it again, my heart's in motion.

If we ever loved again I swear I'd love you right.

so much feelings inside me, so little words i could say.

to be straight forward and honest, i've been feeling rather miserable.

this sucks. why me?

can't you see this misery and just say okay already?

i'm dreading each day - cuz i don't know what this wait is for.

or when this wait will ever end. it feels like it's been forever already.

i feel like screaming out loud, just so that feeling could go away.

but in the end, we all know the only one who could rid me of this misery.

you just chose to be ignorant to that fact. and let me dwell in this pool of emotions.

in solitude.

it's like a drug addiction.

too bad it's one sided. like how the person is always addicted.

but never the other way round.

I've found a reason for me to change who I used to be.

A super overdued post.

Hmmm, about 2 weeks ago, the Cousin and I decided to check out the very much talked about bakery in KL - LeVain Boulangerie Patisserie.

After a 10 minutes drive, we were there. At first we were rather worried about the parking there and wow, they had a jockey service for only RM 2! It was around lunch hour when we reached so the place was quite packed and there were many people (mostly youngsters) standing at the front door, all snapping pictures of their visit.

The counter.

They had a variety of pastries to choose from and of course they had simple food like salad and pasta from RM 9.90 only. (The prices of the pastries vary of course).

The menu.

Our food!

The danish one with berries on top is awesome! They had caramel filling inside and the best thing is, it isn't too sweet.

And this, was the most awesome buy - Turkey Ham & Egg.

Fawesome!



A very comfortable and relaxing environment just nice for some drinks while chilling around with friends/family.



Overexposed.



Oh yeah, they have a great variety of macaroons there too :)

After lunch, we decided to drive over to Pavilion to shop (cuz we had nothing better to do). Hoho, a mere 5 minutes drive!

CNY deco at Pavilion




The Cousin



The obligatory take-reflection-of-self-at-toilet-mirror photo.

Finally updated with some "life" in my blog hahaha wtf. So yeah. Hopefully there will be more posts as such soon haha. (Sorry to end the post so abruptly because yeah, I got lazy typing already boo).

Toodles!

We'll be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds.

Love is beautiful when you look at it this way :)

Open my eyes, it was only just a dream.

a moment ago... deep inside, a part of me has died.



let's hope it stays that way. we'd be happier, especially you.

A cold ruthless death.

如果忽冷忽热的温柔是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过．

谢谢你的温柔.

如果现在说放手, 会太过分吗?
如果现在说放弃, 会太可惜吗?

或许考验是一定会有吧. 可是如果你一直那么自私, 而我却那么倔强, 那么我们的结局要怎么写? 每次都想咬紧牙关的坚持下去. 可是如果有那么多的可是, 还有意思吗? 或许是我不够体谅, 不够成熟... 可是换过来, 你就会体谅了吗?

松开双手, 或许会让我好过一点. 不需要担心或害怕些什么. 拥有跟失去都不在乎. 一旦没有感情就散了算. 说真的, 心里某个角落真的很想这样. 至少对自己不会有那么重的负担. 就像以前那样, 自在潇洒.

可是我知道我们并不是那样. 你跟他们不一样.

厌倦了自己生闷气, 也厌倦了一直期待着你的什么. 连一个简单的简讯都能让我很满足. 很可笑, 是几时让自己变成这样? 或许是你给得太少吧.

有时候真的很开心我们脚步那么慢, 但走的每一步却都那么的踏实. 有时候甚至会让我有一秒的相信真的会很久很久. 可是到最后还是不得不接受路总有一天会分, 宴席总有一天也会散. 只是不知道在何时何地.

所以如果趁现在松手, 到时伤口就不会那么痛吗?

如果说分手是苦痛的起点,
那在终点之前我可以再爱一遍.
想要对你说那不敢说的爱,
会不会有人可以明白?

可是如果现在把手松开，不就太可惜了吗？

我不知道．亲爱的，你说呢？

Just saying.

HAHAHA. Today on FML:

Today, I had an asthma attack because I was masturbating too vigorously. FML

HAHAHAHAHA FYL indeed.


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i love hogging the entire blankie and snuggle right next to you simply because i can.

a prerogative only i'm entitled to.

oh, and i'm sick. so i think i get to hog MORE. heh.

:)

妥协．

Known fact: Boys love toys, no matter how old they are.

They find a new toy and plays with it day and night, almost everyday. Then one day, as time passes, they slowly start to get bored of the toy and starts playing with it less. Then they find excuses to not play with the toy anymore, sometimes not even wanting to see it sitting by the corner.

And I was the toy you grew bored of.

*

你总爱编织谎言，我负责配合表演
所有改变只为了进入你的世界
所有时间都是先给了你优先权
不知觉爱到不敢冒险
成了你的傀儡一年两年
才发现我有多狼狈．

爱到妥协，到头来还是无解
绑着你不让你飞
历史不断重演，我好累．

*

Random quote I saw on Twitter from @FactsAboutBoys:

People say you don't know what you've got until it's gone.
Truth is, you knew what you had,
You just thought you'd never lose it.

True/False?

you were right, she's so pretty.





and probably, that dream did tell something though absurd. it was probably trying to remind me that she has everything i never had, that something you were so crazy about.

something i could never be no matter how hard i try.

because, she's probably perfect in your eyes.

the one who got away.

Here we go, come with me, there's a world out there that we should see.

For some reasons today, I have been constantly reminded of bits and pieces from the vague past. Dating back from just recently to even a few years back.

Through this whole journey of 21 years, many people have came around, stopped by and left. Well, a handful of them stayed of course. And as for those who left, some left leaving nothing of a trace and some leaving their mark on the path.

I greatly believe that each person have been sent into our lives for a reason, each to teach us something we ought to learn in this funny thing we call life. Some lessons learnt naturally and some learnt the hard way.

Well, though it could be said that lessons have been learned and once bitten twice shy, that's not always the case. We tend to forget how painful our first fall was and eventually make the same mistake we did again. Looking at random pictures of people I once had so much in connection with, it's ironic how it feels like we're strangers all over again. They were once people who bore so much importance in my life and now, they hardly cross my mind. This thought itself make my heart sink with a slight feel of guilt.

I thought of so many people today, and my many encounters with each and every one - even some that I'll never think I would one day be reminded of them. One by one, the scenes played through. It took a long while I think, or at least in my head it felt like it did.

Towards the end, it stopped by you the longest, though your stay was the shortest - and ironically, having left the deepest mark I wouldn't want to be reminded of. Without knowing it, I shuddered. Not at the thought of "it could have been," but at the thought at how fast time passed us by. It's been a few good years already. And I have been grateful all the while. Grateful that your short stay had taught me a few things, and your departure taught me far greater things in life. But then again, you taught me to shut myself out from the world too. And just drown myself in a world I never once thought I'd fumble into - of partying, fun and so much I'd wish to keep out from the post.

And that was when you came into the picture. You pulled me out and held me back together slowly. Sometimes I wonder where did all your patience come from. You've played so many roles - my best friend, my keeper, my partner in crime and lastly, my idiot (you'll understand this, right? Heh). Blessed is a girl to have someone like you by her side. What more could I ask for already? I'm thankful to have you with me all along, love.

Till this point, I figured that this is the best it could be, however things turned out to be. I'm happy. Very happy and contented. Happy that I have once myself been a passerby in somebody's life, and probably left my own mark somewhere - with all the bittersweet memories made, roads taken and smiles forgotten. And now, happy that I am leaving my own mark somewhere in your heart - hopefully.

Finally, here I am, sincerely wishing with all my heart that may the few people whose paths I may have crossed have all the happiness in the world with their loved ones. And probably one day if we ever meet again, we'll greet one another with that familiar smile we all once knew.

You were, and always will be the greatest thought in my mind.

you smelly skunk.

Dan mungkin bila nanti, kita kan bertemu lagi
Satu pintaku jangan kau cuba tanyakan kembali
Rasa yang ku tinggal mati.

But all I wanna do is to hold you tight.

I don't need you to tell me that I'm all you'd ever ask for.

I just need you to tell me that you'd never choose another.

At least not inferior to her or her.

Simply because that's the pride I wish to have and most importantly,

To hold on to.

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Love you cuz you're every single star in the constellation.

Hey love,

Let's go somewhere where nobody knows who we are. Then we'll leave our footsteps at every street possible, witness each scenery as far as our eyes could see, blame each other for getting ourselves lost, fight with each other for that slight bit of space in the bed at night - and fall asleep together only waking up to the sunshine from wherever we could be.

As long as you're holding my hands through,

It's just us against the world.

And nothing could ever be better than that.

♥

And I know we'll stand together when the world falls down.
And I know that our forever's gonna start right now.

ただ、もっと大切されたいだけ。

心の何処かでアタシだけの居場所。

ただ、

君の時間がもっと欲がってるだけ。

To a great year.

How can I miss the last post of the year? So here I am, figuring out what to blog about.

It's New Year's Eve tonight people, so what are all your plans? Many people have asked us (the Smelly and I) to join them for their celebrations tonight and well, we kinda rejected all. Reason being, we're sick of the traffic all around the country tonight. Then they'd ask what would we do then, assuming that we have made mindblasting plans.

Well, we said we only plan to rot at home and welcome the new year. Haha, old people we are. Seriously, after being hyper about the countdown few years back, being pushed around like sardines in a can, stuck in the jam for countless hours, we decided to stay at home and watch the fireworks from the balcony haha.

One year has passed and what have been done through these 365 days? To be honest, I've lost and gained a few things. First being that most of my friends have flew overseas. It felt very weird in the beginning without all of their presence, really. I guess, I can only say time took a toll and made things better - and thank God for the invention of technology. And well, I guess there are also friends whom I've completely lost.

As for things I gained, I guess I've gained knowledge. Knowledge about things or people around me. Because sometimes things/people aren't exactly the way you thought they were and the truth could sometimes be ugly. Really ugly.

It's too much to be summarised into one single post and well, some things should be better kept at heart and to those who knows :)

Moving on to the next cliche - Resolutions.

Heck, I've always hated having to think of resolutions to make. Cuz knowing myself, I don't think I keep to them. So this year, Smelly said this "Think of resolutions for next year and then think of how to break them." Haha so much for resolutions huh?

But for custom's sake, I guess I'll make myself think of a few.

• Make the UK trip come true on February.
  (In instances if this fails, please refer to the next bullet)
  
  
• Make Japan trip come true on April/May.
  (I secretly hope this one comes true instead... but then again I need to see my beloveds)
  
  
• Mmm... I guess this would be almost every girl's annual resolution - lose weight.
  
  
• Have more patience. In every aspect possible.
  
  
• Be more awesome than I already am.
  (Hahaha just kidding).
  
  
• See my UK/Australia friends!!
  
  
• Have another 365 with the Smelly. (Hopefully!)
  
  
• Get new camera (though I highly doubt it, judging from the tragical demise of my previous one)
  
  

Well, that's it for now I guess. I'll add on if I manage to think of more. So, mind sharing your resolutions too? :)

And let's hope everyone has a great beginning to year 2011! 良いお年を～！Cheers.

You set it again, my heart's in motion.

Today, is one of the loveliest day I've ever had in so long.

We'll have more of days like this.

Thank you love.