I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight.

It's not everything I want, but definitely something I want badly.

Wants and desires, they never work in line with reality. At least that's what I've learnt through the years. Life had always been so unfair and good karma doesn't exactly come around. But who am I to complain and who is there to really blame? People don't really get what they deserve, no matter how hard they've worked for it. And those who don't deserve these, gets them so easily that it's so insulting.

Life is a bitch sometimes, and all you can do is to accept the shit it gives you.

Smelly tells me that every time I complain. Harsh, but I guess he's right. I'll get through this and one day, I'll rise above this for sure.

There'll be a day when desire becomes compatible with the cold reality I'm living in. I'm pretty sure.

没人疼爱再美的人也会憔悴.

我学着在你爱里沉醉
你守护着我穿过黑夜
我愿意这条情路相守相随
你最珍贵.

♥ ♥

Yesterday you told me bout the blue blue sky and all that I can see.

- is just another lemon tree.

But that someone barely comes around,

Not till after a few hard falls,

So once you've found that someone, remember,

Never, ever let them go.

Isolation is not good for me.

How much in love does a person has to be,

to be that much in love?

I'd like to know.

你的双手甩开刚好的微妙.

It's your birthday!

To the vainest, kiasu-est, pin tai-est friend that I have,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :)

Have a great 21st, and please please get drunk on all our behalves. You only turn 21 once heheh. Wished you were back here. Hope your friends over there at Glasgow would make your birthday a blast nonetheless :D

And not forgetting, our yearly MERRY CHRISTMAS! Heh. Stupid reason which yet started a stupid tradition to do every year during your birthday haha.

Missing you guys so much. Our sleepless Monopoly Deal sessions omfg. And those spontaneous trips :(

Love,
Your Marketing Executive.

x

<3<3

Drinking champagne, going insane like it's her birthday.

My very hopeless friend who just landed in Leeds like barely a week ago.

kamen says (7:46 PM):
so you've met up with jx already rite?

juen says (7:47 PM):
yeah
she's like a hopeless goat like tht
come to leeds with nothing
then i have to take her around so she can buy all her necessities

kamen says (7:48 PM):
hahahahahahaha hopeless goat hahahahaha
damn funny
she packed the day before
and came out with us few hours before her flight before she was done packing

juen says (7:51 PM):
she just pack nonsense la
make up and clothing tht are too thin to wear out

In case you guys are wondering which retard I am talking about, she looks something like this:

If any of you see her in Leeds, please donate her daily essentials. She might need it. Haha just had to blog about this part of our conversation cuz she's too silly-ly funny! :3

Eh come back la, durian waiting for you here. And your fries.

If I'm addicted to loving you and you're addicted to my love too.

Haha I fumbled upon this thing and it just reminded me of the stupid game we used to play back in Primary school! Speaking of school, sigh, it'll always remind me of the chap fan story and how Smelly consider us Cempaka students as spoiled brats :(

We're not!

Haha stupid rite! But it was pretty fun to kill some time. Yay red mini! Sorry Smelly, I did put Aston Martin as another option but it didn't come out :(

And crap, we're gonna live in a shack. Goddamnit where's my mansion! Smelly, start learning Japanese please. Wtf.

Try it here.

And if there's somebody calling me on, she's the one.

I know this is pretty late but I went on a trip up to Bukit Tinggi on the previous Saturday with the Smelly, Grandmom, Mom, the Cousin and the Cousin's Mom (also my aunty lol). Yeah, we kinda ran out of places to visit so we decided Bukit Tinggi. Drove up there and heck, we took the wrong turning and ended up halfway to Genting. Meh.

The last time I've been there was at least a good 10 years ago I think. And I don't remember walking up a crazy steep hill just to reach the Japanese Tea House. Well, got there and there were nothing but some flowers and all.

I like the colour of this photo :)



Beautiful kan!

The weather was cloudy when we first reached. After visiting the Japanese Tea House, we drove over to the French Castle (apparently) place. Boy, the roads there were very windy.

Yay flower again.

I didn't know they had swans there. The swans there were so tak layan. They literally ignore the people desperately trying to lure them over.

Until I was so desperate I sacrificed my Famous Amos cookies T_____________T

Yeah, I was afraid they'd bite me. So this is my very failed plus terrified expression.

Those greedy things. Buat graceful in front of other people and in fairy tales, but when there's food, they snatch your food like nobody's business.

Then here is Mom being fascinated by the armour's fingers. -_________-

Later on, we stopped by the Rabbit Farm on our way back down to KL.

Smelly layan-ing all the rabbits.

Some of the rabbits were so unfriendly, they barely eat the pellets we fed to them. And even if you manage to feed them, they'll run away the moment you try to touch them. Boo :(

The Cousin and I

Our favourite rabbit!

It was the cutest rabbit there in the farm cuz it was the fluffiest lol.

Finally, the update on Bukit Tinggi is finally done. And by the way, Happy Mooncake Festival people. Have a happy one with your families tonight :)

If it's love and we're two birds of a feather, then the rest is just whenever.

Sorry that I haven't been updating lately. Barely had the time to actually sit down and type a blog post.

Well, as you all already know, it was someone's birthday on the 16th. A surprise was planned a week ago and the plan was something like this: to con Smelly over to a friend's place and surprise him on the 15th. I received a text last minute saying that we need a Plan B cuz Plan A is failing.

So Plan B.

At 11, all of us went to Smelly's house to set things up and surprise him. Of course, we had two spies with him while he was in the gym. Two very fishy spies who didn't actually manage to convince him.

But before that, I should rewind a slight bit about the afternoon. I baked a cake - for the first time in my life. I've never baked anything before (besides some cookies which didn't exactly turn out good). So during the afternoon of 15th, I went to my cousin's place and got her to teach me how to bake a cake. I was so freaked out cuz everyone told me that I was going to fail (very motivating people I have in my life).

Objective: To bake Strawberry Longan cake.

Yeah, this part wasn't too hard.

This was the initial outcome, and I was so freaked out until I was told that I have to slice the top part off.

This was after slicing the top and bottom part off and then it was divided into three separate parts.

Making the cream.

I swear, I couldn't feel my left arm anymore later that day cuz I had to hold that thing and go in circles for god knows how long. Had to do the same to make the cake too at first.

After applying the cream and longans between the layers of cake, obviously I had to cover the whole cake in cream and decorate it. The end product?

HAH! Bet all of you thought I failed.

I bloody hell succeeded! Okay, back to the surprise.

We thought we were smart enough to hide our shoes in a box and bring it into his room when we reached. We forgot to hide the box and left it openly in his room. That was Fail #1. Then we (the girls) left our bags all over the couch in Smelly's room. That was Fail #2. One of us accidentally parked our car outside his house and he saw the car. Fail #3.

Fortunately, we still managed to "surprise" the Smelly and ended up playing Circle of Death till like, 4am. Very funny game to play, especially with Jia Xin around (haha inside joke). Poor girl, she was the only person who had to drink so much besides the birthday boy. Cuz she was the only one who had slow reflexes during the game haha.

And well, Smelly claimed she has a face problem so she had to constantly be the one drinking every time he picked a card. Heh.

The cake which everyone thought I bought from a cake shop.

This is so sad. Everyone that night didn't believe that I baked the cake. Like, nobody at all.

Smelly's Mom: I thought you're baking a cake?

Me: I baked this... T__________________T

And Smelly himself:

"I bet the cake you tried baking failed and you went to some cake shop and bought this cake last minute."

FML.

Circle Of Death



Sorry for the bad quality pics :(

Once again, poor Jia Xin. But then again, we all wanted to get her wasted the night before her flight off to Leeds. Heheh. So yeah, that was how the surprise went. Lastly,


JIA XIN!! *does King card thing*


Heeheeeeeee :P

It's that special day when I should thank your Mom.

Boo.

Guess who's turning older today, mon chéri.

Happy Birthday love ♥ ♥ ♥

On this day,
I think about how glad I am that you were born,
And how thankful I am to have you in my life.

On your day,
I wish you fine and simple pleasures,
I wish you many years of laughter and
I wish for you, all of life's best treasures.

May each birthday be better than the last,
And most of all,
I hope you will always be
As happy as you have made me.

Happy Smelly 21st darling.

Love, me :)

xx

谁在用琵琶弹奏一曲东风破？

Somehow, this feels sad :(

Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems.

One day, we'd be so in love. We'd be so strong.
And everything falls into place.
The next, we'd be hating everything each other did.

And none of us would make any sense.

Perhaps this is why we're attracted to one another, darling.

Your temper is just as bad as mine is,
you're the same as me.
I apologize even though I know it's lies.

I wanna leave with you tonight.

cuz baby tonight, the DJ got us falling in love again.

I guess it's true, when people say you should appreciate people and things while they're still around. Everyone's flying off one by one now :(

那一晚, 我们忘了现实的残酷，无视了时间的无情．
那一晚, 我们不用理会别人会说些什么,
不用再怕流言蜚语.

那一晚, 你是我的.

那晚, 音乐很吵.
你的温柔却跟以往一样, 倔强里带有那么一点腼腆.
你抱着我说,
「公主, 为什么我们兜兜转转, 等了两年才回到这里? 浪费了那么多时间．」
措手不及的我不知道该如何回复你,
只能笑笑在你耳边说，
「你太花心, 让我当你一晚的唯一吧.」
「我一定会想死你．」
我又何尝不是．

想起来，其实很可笑．
两年的日夕相对，我们不懂得珍惜．
等时间过了，只剩下两天，
才后悔这迟来的发现．

我们的关系, 太微妙.
很想踏出最后一步, 却知道是错的.
只能在原地徘徊, 让遗憾变美丽.

So dance, dance like it's the last,
last night of your
life.

It's a serenade so your heart can find me.

"Aime-moi moins mais, aime-moi longtemps."

Love me, not too fiercely that it'll burn out
but, love me enough to last us a long long time.

Spam #2

Well, with reference to the post below, Angeline decided to steal it and posted it on her blog which once talked about the war between boys and girls. Her darling Mr. KB decided to compose a reply in regards to the response from Ms. V.Gina to Mr. P.Niss and I found it very quite funny actually.

Dear Ms V.Gina,

Thank you for taking the time to review my request. But in my defense, here is what i have to say:

I do not work 8 hrs straight because you, Ms V.Gina is never around the office. In addition to that, we are being forced to take unpaid leave for a week because the office will be closed due to busted pipe, flooding the whole work area with red water.

I think you have mistaken me for someone else. I don't fall asleep during work hours, it was my other colleague, Kukubird.

I don't stay in one location not because I don't obey the management but because Ms B.J. Lips is asking for my help to train up Ms. Palmers and her 5 new interns.

Ms V.Gina, I believe it is the other way round. I am always easier to please and easy to get into the working mood (in like seconds). But you on the other hand, have the FOR3_PLAY.xls checklist to complete each time before i can start my work. So its best to skip it and get to work - time is gold :)

Ms V.Gina, as I mentioned earlier, we work in a dark, hot and dangerous environment. So we have no other choice but to finish up quickly and get out; leaving the place in a mess. From an engineering point of view, I think best way to resolve this is to leave the mess with Ms. B.J Lips, as she is with the cleaning and maintenance crew. And sometimes we do not put on protective clothing, because you told us it wasn't necessary!

I retire before 65 because starting from 60, the office is already so old and dusty, machines are all broken down and left 'hanging' that there is no way for me to find motivation to work anymore. I think it can be resolved by replacing management to give it a fresh young feel again.

I don't work double but TRIPLE shift. At times, I have to even wake you up at 4am to get into the office.

I did complete my assignment and task, I usually leave it with Ms B.J. Lips, Ms F. Ace or Ms. B.Elly. You can find my complete and finished report there. And sometimes if I forget, its always inside my protective pockets.

The 2 bags that I always carry are my documents to help with work. It is important.

Sincerely,

Dr. P. Niss
BEng (Hons) Engineering in S.Ex Science

Haha kudos to him for that. He actually managed to come up with a response like this haha.

Spam #1

Haha read this off Facebook and found it stupidly funny. Well, if you're bored and have nothing better to do, you can always try reading this :)

The Day the Penis asked for a Raise

I, the Penis, hereby request a raise in salary for the following reasons:
I do physical labor.
I work at great depths.
I plunge headfirst into everything I do.
I do not get weekends or public holidays off.
I work in a damp environment.
I work in a dark workplace that has poor ventilation.
I work in high temperatures.
My work exposes me to contagious diseases.

Sincerely,
P. Niss

The Response:

Dear Penis:

After assessing your request, and considering the arguments you have raised, the administration rejects your request for the following reasons:
You do not work 8 hours straight.
You fall asleep after brief work periods.
You do not always follow the orders of the management team. You do not stay in your designated area and are often seen visiting other locations.
You do not take initiative - you need to be pressured and stimulated in order to start working.
You leave the workplace rather messy at the end of your shift. You don't always observe necessary safety regulations, such as wearing the correct protective clothing.
You will retire well before you are 65.
You are unable to work double shifts.
You sometimes leave your designated work area before you have completed assigned task.
And if that were not all, you have been seen constantly entering and exiting the workplace carrying two suspicious-looking bags.

Sincerely, V. Gina

Lol? Original page here.

To be with you, there's nothing I wouldn't do.

i wish i knew what makes you happy so i could make you the happiest person in the whole world.

You know I know how to make em stop and stare as I zone out.

I don't know bout you, but I think this is frikkin' cool. Let's try doing this. I'm pretty sure I'll manage to pull that off.

In a million years that is. Fat chance HAHAH.

On an unrelated note, I just watched Step Up for the second time last night, this time in 3D. I love the part where Natalie tells Luke that he's glowing. The part where we were the only idiots laughing in the cinema. *cough* Jia Xin *cough* another inside joke heheh.

Anyhoots, enjoy the vid! It's so cool I tell you.

If there's somebody calling me on, she's the one.

ZOMG. RICK MALAMBRI IS EFFING HOT.

Like, hot hot hot. Yeah, he's the guy who plays Luke in Step Up 3D. OMG. HE'S HOT. (I have a feeling this is one of those I-found-a-hot-eye-candy-but-this-fever-will-die-very-soon thing again).

I can't believe I never noticed him at all when he played "Floppy Haired Guy" (he didn't have a name in the show goddamnit) in Episode 16, Season 2 of How I Met Your Mother :(

Whatever. RICK MALAMBRIIIII. I so feel like a Ching Mun going crazy over her Lee Min Ho right now. Bad bad feeling (haha).

Actually, I stopped to google more on him for a bit after the previous full stop. And I just found out that... he's married. Boohoo :(

☆★☆★☆★☆★

So maybe it's true,
That I can't live without you.
Maybe two is better than one.
There's so much time to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone.
And I'm thinking

Two is better than one.


Ah, I so remember this song :)

Cuz you're amazing just the way you are.

If time would slip and pass us by,
I'll wish it could stop right here.

And if any moment should stop,
Let it be the simplest ones of you and I.

But I'm afraid,
Cuz I'm too happy right now.

And I have learnt that happiness never lasts.

But right now,
Could you just let me be childish and ask
For you to be my happiness that could hopefully,
Stay till my time is over?

Boy, don't you know you can't escape me?
Oh darling cuz you'll always be my baby.

擦肩而过.

Was reading things randomly online when something caught my attention. A close friend mentioned it to me once and I already found it fascinating, but later on forgotten about it. Now that I came across that saying again, I decided to read more about it.

My sincere apologies to those who are unable to read Chinese. I could do some translations here and there, but I still think the beauty of the lines should only remain that way. So yeah, sorry peeps :(

前世五百次的回眸才换得今世的擦肩而过.

那么, 我要多少次回眸才能住进你心中?

前世500次的擦肩而过, 换来今世一次的相遇;
前世500次的相遇, 换来今世一次的相识;
前世500次的相识, 换来今世一次的相知;
前世500次的相知, 换来今世一次的相爱.

*

第一最好不相见, 如此便可不相恋.
第二最好不相知, 如此便可不相思.
第三最好不相伴, 如此便可不相欠.
第四最好不相惜, 如此便可不相忆.
第五最好不相爱, 如此便可不相弃.
第六最好不相对, 如此便可不相会.
第七最好不相误, 如此便可不相负.
第八最好不相许, 如此便可不相续.
第九最好不相依, 如此便可不相偎.
第十最好不相遇, 如此便可不相聚.

但曾相见便相知, 相见何如不见时.
安得与君相诀绝, 免教生死作相思.

It's a serenade so your heart can find me.

Wake me up when September ends.

Oh and there's a pic I personally like very, very much.

Mmmm, polar bears!! <3

Time is precious and it's slipping away
And I've been waiting for you all of my life.

Cuz when I'm kissin you my senses come alive.

I wanna, I wanna with party my girls before everyone flies off separately. It's been a long while since I've had an enjoyable party.

We. Must. Party. Before CM goes back to Glasgow at least :(

Haha speaking of Ching Mun, it just reminded me of something. That night when everybody called her by her new found nickname and nobody remembered her real name hahaha. Well, one thought it was Chiung Min. HAHAHA.

Oh, and our new friend Jiaxinta. *inside joke*

And Ang Pei Ling, could you just come down to KL and club for one night with us?

Oh and btw, knowing how much I love the song, Smelly showed me this picture he came across online one day haha.