It's Halloween again.

Hmm, just in time. 3 minutes before the clock strikes 12 am,

Happy Halloween folks :)

Hope you people had fun dressing up and trick or treatin' (if you still consider yourself young enough to be trick or treating that is).

Love.

You know that it all takes my breath away.

"so maybe it's true that I can't live without you,
and I'm thinking two,
is better than one."

I remember asking myself this sometime almost a year ago - whether would two be better than one. Cuz I was too afraid back then.

Well, it's almost one year down the road already and I think, I can surely say that two is better than one :)

*

Oh, and here's a very random conversation between us a moment ago.

Me: Eh, Halloween is coming!

Smelly: Yeah.

Me: Mmm, you don't have to worry what to dress up as. Just walk out as yourself and it's the best costume ever already.

Smelly: No. I have something better.

Me: What?

Smelly: I'm dressing up as YOU. *annoying cb laugh*

-_____________-

FML.

We're fighting this war baby when both of us are losing.

I've heard of a story.

It was a story of a small boy who was playing around in a field one day. It was a very beautiful field with colourful flowers and a carpet of green grass. Butterflies were fluttering around like a world of their own. After many many attempts, the small boy finally managed to catch a butterfly with his tiny hands. Overcame with joy, he cupped the butterfly within his palms and held on to it tightly while rushing home to share his glee with his mother. Smile plastered on his face, he told his mother on how he managed to catch the butterfly and opened his hands to show her. The butterfly just laid there motionless. It was dead because the small boy accidentally crushed it when he was running home, holding onto it too tightly.

The small boy reminded me of myself. Perhaps I've been holding on too tightly all the while. Suffocating myself and barely leaving space for you to breathe. You're struggling for air and I'm struggling to keep you in my hands. In the end, we'll both end up like the butterfly - crushed.

It takes two hands to clap, I know. But no point blaming others when it could change nothing.

Or perhaps, I shouldn't make you such a big part of my life. Sadly for you, you already are.

And hopefully one day, you'll look back and realise that I've held onto the butterfly so tightly because it was something so important to me that I could never bear losing.

其实盼醉下去醉下去，
人生清醒眼泪令人倦令人累．
但如若真的交出整个心，
会否只换到唏嘘？

Actually
everyone might just have wished to be in a state of drunkenness,
Because when you're sober,
The tears in life would only make you sick and tired.
But if I really gave my entire heart out,
Would I just end up with nothing but loneliness in the end?

You make me feel like I'm living a teenage dream.

Yeap, it was the biggest HA (Hennessy Artistry) event of the year on Saturday and it was held in Malaysia International Convention Center @Mines Resort City.

Hennessy Artistry HALO Event 2010.

Met a lot of friends there. And I meant, a lot. Too bad my camera screen (yes, the cracked one) was too annoying so I couldn't take many pictures :(

At the entrance with Sun :)



The lighting on the stage was awesome that night!



With Elise, Julz' wifey.



Clement aka the Rock lol.



Shryne ahhhh!! (wakakaka APL I bet you're jealous)



Jonny and Sun



The bar at the entrance.

Angeline and Lin Lin! :3

Was so happy to see her that night. It's been ages since I last saw everyone. But, Angeline!!! Finally got to see her and hello, we're wearing the same colour again as we did for the previous Hennessy that we went together at Quattro last year wtf.

With Couz Xiao Tong

(Picture stolen from her as seen)



Lin Lin, Angeline, Marc and erm, photographer haha.

It's been a while since I've been partying. As the (not so) Favourite J said on MSN one day, "I see that you have cut down a lot on partying. You should start again you know." Sigh, bad bad influence. After this event, I guess the next party is gonna be some time away :/

Not too much of a bad thing actually. I'm getting old already wtf. Too much of alcohol and lack of sleep is bad. Tsk tsk. Alright, am signing off with a vainpot picture of myself.

Take care peeps.

Yours truly :)

*

Sometimes,
there are just some people you think
you'd never meet again.
And you'll meet
at the most unexpected times.

And that's when I realised,
It was a long ago past we've all forgotten.

For
We're nothing more than strangers now.

And it made me ever so sure that,
I'm glad I've found who found me
At my worst.
Perhaps he might break me one day,
And make me cry a river again.
But right now,
I'm glad he's caught me where I landed,
And loves me more than I deserve to be.

The only thing I regret?
Was that it took me too long to figure out
That you were the "silent idiot".
If you still remember our joke that night.
A joke only we'd know, love :)

My smelly you.

sick and tired.

繰り返すばかり・・・

但是又如果还是要爱你？

自我催眠，只为了努力讨好．

这，真的对吗？

对自己说为了自己．可是究竟真的是为了自己吗？

最近话题只能不断盘旋在那．

如果我停止，把话题转换了，你的速度也跟着缓慢了．

所以为了捉紧你注意，除了让自己喜欢，

还是只能尝试让自己喜欢．

虽然说到最后，这对自己是有利无害．身体也不会那么软弱,

可是，真的会开心吗？

说穿了，

只是因为你迷恋而努力的去让自己喜欢这完全不感兴趣的玩意．

两个人在一起，需要讨好吗？曾经在你面前最自然的我，去了哪里？

我们，变質了吗？

多的是，你不知道的事．

No matter what I do, all I think about is you.

It's poll time peeps! The princess is currently stuck in one of the greatest dilemma's she's ever faced in her life. Wtf why am I speaking in a third party position?

Anyway, yeah. I've just landed myself onto a huge pothole. Or rather, Dilemma has pushed me off an endless cliff. I need feedback's on this, seriously.

A two months job with a fucking high pay (yes, I usually try my best to not use profanities on my blog, and when I do, it's either I'm seriously pissed or I'm just massively awed) which requires me to be away from home (and my Smelly you) for two months - or a plain Jane work which pays a plain Jane* pay?

*Plain Jane pay here refers to a range of RM 2,000~3,000 per month.

So yeah, when I mean fucking high, I'm talking about a salary where some people would take a year (or more) to earn. And it is a pretty enjoyable job. Well, I mean, I'm pretty sure touring Korea would be quite enjoyable. Thing is, I'm not really a Korean cuisine fan (cuz most of their food are either beef or spicy stuffs) and I can't exactly imagine myself surviving in a place where I understand nuts.

I mean, I'm pretty used to be capable of understanding most languages since I was a kid. Now that I might end up in a place where I can't understand shits, OTTOKEH??? Heck, I don't even know how to spell it correctly but it means HOWWW?? in Korean wtf. Well, I can read Korean with no problems but here's the catch. I can read every single word but understand nothing about it. And can barely speak a few simple phrases only. What am I to do???

Ugh. What do you guys think?

Now it all seems so clear that there's nothing left to fear.

This is clearly a complain post so don't bother reading if you are not kepoh enough or if you're gonna finish reading this post and think to yourself "such a whiner". Whatever. I've warned you.

I know this sounds snobbish and selfish and whatever horrible word you can ever think of, but right now, I wished I knew nobody else in this big fat world. Then there would be nothing else for me to care about. Or be bothered about. Whatever.

You see, if the world was a complete stranger, there won't be any possible dramas in life. Your life will constantly be in peace. Okay, let's say your life is drama-less. If the world was a complete stranger, nobody will ever betray you because there isn't anyone for you to trust in the very first place. Okay, then let's assume that nobody around you will betray your trust. If the world was a complete stranger, nothing would bother you and you can constantly be happy like a fool - and that's something great, to be happy.

Yeah, at this moment, I wished I had complete strangers around me day in day out.

Well, except for those few. Yeah, just that very very few that I'd like to keep and would hate myself if I never got to know them. As to who they are, I think things are better kept to myself and leave them to your already wild imagination.

I'm not bothered to have any decency in typing nicely anymore nor whether I have made any grammatical errors or not in this post. I can't be arsed right now.

My deepest apologies if I sound as if I have a massive problem against the whole world. No, I do not hate the world and I do not have any bitchy drama going on in my life right now. Just whining my dissatisfaction towards certain issues. I mean, I can't sound like Miss Sunshine all the time right? Just blame it on "that time of the month" if you wish to. It's every girl's excuse to bitch anyway.

I'll go watch some brainless reality show now then all these nonsense mood swing will fade away soon enough and I'll be your friendly neighbourhood girl all over again :)

Hi. Nice to meet you!


P/S. Nothing else matters anymore when there's you with me. And I'm glad you are :)

Remember to let her into your heart, then you can start to make it better.

Hi all.

I've been lifelessly watching a lot of HK drama's recently. Name the show and I've definitely watched it, no joke. Not just TVB, but also from different HK channels. Being the lifeless couch potato, I've became a pro in predicting the probable outcomes in these shows already. Let's try.

1) Rich guy and girl from poor family.
This is probably the most cliche one. Guy's family will be against this because the girl is so poor that it'll bring their family status down. Then something will happen and they get touched by the girl's sincere heart and they live happily ever after.

2) Girl fainting/vomitting out of no where.
DEFINITELY PREGNANT.

3) Randomly adding English words into the conversation.
The guy/girl is some high class person (very atas) who just came back from Cambridge or Oxford with some high class degree.

4) Driving car after fight with flashbacks.
Wait for another 1 or 2 minutes into the show and the car will definitely crash. Then his/her phone will ring because gf/bf called to apologize but nobody is there to answer because he/she is dead/unconscious. Then the camera focuses on the phone ringing showing the gf/bf's name and the scene changes to the hospital. Or worse still, they jump straight to the cemetery.

5) When bitching about somebody.
Usually some HTHT (Heart to Heart Talk) in a room or some dim sum restaurant. And the person being bitched about will be behind listening. Dramaaaaaa

6) Driving in car after fight (but doesn't die or get into car crash).
Probably heading to the beach to be emo. But now they improvise so he/she will be skipping stones, but the cliche still stays where he/she will shout TIM KAI AHHHHHH!!!

7) Beach at night.
Yeah, speaking of beaches in the previous point, this came to my mind. He/She is probably so emo he/she decides to walk into the sea and commit suicide. Then the girl/guy who is stalking him/her from behind and has a crush on him/her comes out to save him/her. Then they fall in love after some dramatic scolding scenes.

8) Impromptu meeting of girl and guy at night (usually at a bridge).
They're breaking up! No doubt.

9) Guy having fought with gf called his friends out to emo at a bar/club.
He'll get drunk and has a one night stand with a random girl. Next morning, gf decides to patch things up and walks into the room seeing them naked. She then gets very pissed and walks off crying. WU LEI JING.

10) Something happened between guy/girl so he starts looking for her in the roads.
Usually this happens in those 古装戏, Meaning drama which uses some random Chinese dynasty as timeline (i.e. guy has long hair probably tied in a bun holding a fan and girl wears layers of long dress with drama hairstyle). Anyway back to the point, guy starts searching for girl and they usually brush past one another. He'll be at the left corner and she's just turned that corner, vice versa.

So yeah. With these 10 points as your guideline in watching HK drama, you definitely won't go wrong in predicting the probable outcome of the current show you're watching. Just saying.

Have fun.

And there's nothing I can tell her to make her feel alright.

苦しくて苦しくて、もう呼吸できない。

誰か、助けて？

君から。

減りたい、この愛しさを。

もうこんなに愛したくない。

Save me, please.

i need to find who i used to be.

*

如实在认真喜欢我，或有心敷衍我？
如今只有三岁都清楚．
难道你共我亲吻抱拥之后竟有偏差？

不想和我好，不如直说真话．

Don't you know you can't escape me?

- cuz you'll always be my baby.

可是我, 有时候
宁愿选择留恋不放手
等到风景都看透
也许你会陪我看细水长流.

But sometimes, I'd
Rather choose to not let go.
And be patient,
Till we're done with all the passing sceneries.

Then probably,
You'd settle down for this everlasting simplicity of
us.

So little words yet with a meaning so deep :)

And it seemed everlasting that you would always be mine.

Love, the sudden distance scares the hell out of me.

Can we please leave out all the fights and fury already?

You know it's all not worth the fight.

We're more than that.

And please, love

Don't ever, say that anymore.

Cuz it scares me to tears.

This is probably the first time I'm saying this on my blog to anyone,

But

I love you, baby. Very much so.

太多的情绪没有适当的表情．

最近都失眠，不知道为什么．
很难入睡，很像有很多东西想．．．
可是当我仔细去想的时候，却搞不懂是什么．

终于睡了，却又发一些奇奇怪怪的梦让我不时醒过来．
生活总像欠缺一点什么，
一点也不充实．

想了很久很久，才发现原来那是空虚．

如果你在那该有多好．
有人陪我笑，陪我不开心，陪我疯，陪我一起无聊．
无聊没事做，一通电话就出来喝一下茶就半夜了．
明天一大早上课又见面，上课闷就做废东西还是想晚上要跑去哪里玩．
下课闪得最快也是我们．可是为了等我们的慢公主，放慢了脚步．
现在只能在电脑里偶尔跟你skype一下．
真的很不习惯．

亲爱的你，
能让我如此空虚的，能让我如此想念的，
能让我想起那低落到想哭的心情的，
除了在Manchester的那个
就非你莫属了．

我知道你在看．
我也知道你知道我是在写着你．

男朋友？就那句「No comment．」吧．

hey我真的好想你，
你是否也像我一样在想你？

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender.

- and one day, we'll be watching the sun set like this, shoulder to shoulder, head to head. by the beach perhaps?

Seems like everybody's breaking up and throwing their love away,
But I know I got a good thing right here,
That's why I say,

Nobody gonna love me better,
Imma stickwitu.
Nobody gonna take me higher,
Imma stickwitu.

See the way we ride in our private lives
Ain't nobody gettin' in between.
So don't you worry about people hanging around,
They ain't bringing us down.

I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts.

Imma stickwitu ♥ ♥

Isn't that just too bad for you, love?

Reviewing Malaysia Property Portal

Have you ever gave it a thought or two, how your future home would be like? Or how the office you'll be sitting in would look like? With all the beautiful sceneries, crowd and bla bla bla.

Well, being the random person that I am, I did. I decided to start looking at properties (whether I could afford them or not was secondary heh) just to feel the fun of it. It was my first time looking around at properties (property virgin wtf) so I was looking for a site which was user-friendly. As in, not too confusing (knowing myself, I know I would not be familiar with so many complicated terms out of my field). And voila, I found it at Malaysia Property.

They had their properties categorised to different sections (i.e. Residencies, Apartments, Shops, Factories, Land, etc etc.) so I could easily choose the category I'm interested in with just a click. The information provided were very clear as to the location, pricing and all. And the best thing, they had so many tempting pictures I swear.

Omfg. I so want a house with a view like this. And the pool!! *faints*

See, just nais for me to live in.



Ok la, cannot be too greedy. A small cozy space like this would do already.

They had countless properties (from all price range) on for sale and for rent. And adding on to the great accessibility, they even categorised their properties according to location. Ranging from KLCC, Mont Kiara, Cheras, Subang Jaya and even places out of KL! Just type in the your desired price range and type of property into the search bar and they'll generate the results automatically. Damn cool can *jakun/noob mode on*

Then I started to think what kinda office I wanted to sit in. And I saw this. Here is where my future law firm will be in so I can exploit my clients to pay higher consultation prices for the good view they get haha wtf. Just kidding.

T________________T

Not too far, just Mont Kiara. Or at least that's what I told myself wtf.

Heh. Too early for me to start dreaming wtf. So yeaps, now that everything is DIY, you can even search for your dream property online without anyone's help already and take your own sweet time choosing wtf. Oh ya, you can also advertise your property for people to buy/rent too by simply registering for an account.

Well, it doesn't hurt to just look around right. So ya, you should try checking them out if you're a random person like me and if you're looking for a house/shop/land to spend your money on, you're definitely looking at the right place: Malaysia Property. True story ;-)

Cuz baby tonight the DJ's got us falling in love again.

I know that I shouldn't be snacking at such hours.

But sometimes, knowing something is pretty much different from actually doing that something.

Kamen, please learn to start listening to your heart. When it tells you to not lay your hands on that packet of chips, it always has its reasons for telling you so.

This is so ironic. I'm happily snacking and wondering who to stalk on Facebook what show to watch while listening to an extremely depressing song. Wtf.

Trying to be perfect, trying not to let you down.

I think I should try getting back my blogging mojo, cuz I think I've lost it. Well, I'm still trying my very best to keep this space updated from time to time.

Nothing much happening recently actually. Besides the fact that I need to get hired. For god's sake, somebody hire me already! I need a job, like right now.

Yeah, coming from me... I need a job actually, for some upcoming plan early next year. Really hope we can make it. Gotta start working my ass off and save up the cash just so the plan could actually work!

I bet you're all wondering what it is heheh. Nope, not gonna speak of it unless at least half of the plan is already in place. Nothing's confirmed at all right now and it's just in the planning stage where we're still trying to figure things out and get things to start working. Firstly, by getting hired. Just realised it'll be so much more meaningful (than it already is) if we actually manage to pull this off with our very own hardly earned cash :)

Let's hope all things go well and I'll be so looking forward to this plan. Now dear plan, please please please come true. Wish me luck! :)

And that was the day that I promised I'd never sing of love if it does not exist.

This is such a cute picture of one of my favourite animals. Sheeps! :3

Life is so mundane now. I wished there was something to make it more... fruitful. Yeah, that's the word. It's like I'm doing nothing beneficial now besides wasting space and time. And I'm not liking this at all.

I really need to get started and move on to my next point in life. I hate changes, I like how things are right now. But sometimes, I think I just gotta deal with it.

But before I deal with anything, could the world be nice enough to me and lead me to a place where there's stock for iPhone4? Cuz it's seriously annoying the shit out of me.

And right now, someone please feed me. I'm stuck at home with nothing to eat I think I'm gonna starve myself to death soon. And even if I do, I think I'll be left undiscovered till night time when my parents are home. Sadly, it's a good 6 hours before anyone comes home. FML.

Mind me, I'm just randomly typing nonsense which comes to my head. I'm that bored. Help?

On a very very unrelated note, I notice that I'm having more readers coming from UK and Australia compared to local ones. There goes my friends. I feel like such a loner now. I think I need to migrate to a place where nobody knows me and start making new friends. FML x2.

Will you still love me tomorrow?

Hello people. Once again, I'm very sorry for not updating recently and you have to constantly see the emo picture posted in the post below. I have been extremely busy for the past few days with a lot of god knows what.

Just got home from sending off one of my very close friend in the airport and boy it was kinda depressing, mentally. I have sent a few friends off in the airport before, but somehow, this kinda made it feel like the first time I'm sending someone off in the airport. You know, the heavy feeling in the heart as if someone has just punched you in the face kinda thing.

I don't know, through that one year in Year 2, we've always been doing almost everything together. Rushing for assignments, smuggling ourselves out of classes halfway to do nonsense sometimes, last minute late night cramming before exams, thinking very hard of what to eat for lunch because Mia eats almost nothing, partying almost on a weekly basis and that very random trip to Genting during class. It's like we know so much about one another, and those kiasu things we do to one another. Who would be the one doing all these shit with me after she's left? Perhaps, we've grown on one another, I really don't know.

Yeah, I'm talking about her - the loser shit Ang Pei Ling. She's probably one of the closest friend whom I trust the most and could tell absolutely everything to. Funny how we knew of one another's existence since those years in Taylors but never got close till we're doing our law degree in HELP. I think I'm missing her already so soon :(

And woman! Please give up on your Blackberry and get an iPhone 4 instead so we can Facetime!!

Sigh, this is getting depressing. On a brighter note, no - I did not forget:

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY WOMAN!

I'm so sorry I couldn't get the post up on time, but I think I still made it UK TIME! Lol wtf. Hopefully Juen decided to stop saving the world (inside joke) and remembered my words to make you drunk. Hahaha speaking of Juen, that joker who raped her Facebook and phone during her birthday. Texted her a happy birthday with a lot of yada yada stuffs, and the reply I got was "I wanna go strip clubbb!!" LOL.

Hope you had fun woman. Finally, finally out of your teens hahaha - like, really finally :P

P/S. Please please remember to not glow too much. Save voltage and save energy :D

x

Perhaps it's me, but where's the good in goodbye? Cuz I certainly don't see it.