Once you party with us, you'll be falling in love.

To you, I'm sure you know that this is for you. And I bet you're smiling sneakily as you're reading this. You loser shit.

你当然可以重新再爱
受过伤的感动, 怎样爱与被爱

反正
你有他的回忆, 有空白回忆
离开你的, 只有他

但是, 爱还在

听我说,
爱是对的
错的是
我们还没学会爱就急着爱人
而爱错人

痛苦或快乐都是我的

我当然经历过你现在的感受
我想那是人必经的折磨
也许每个人都该是某个人成长的助手
受 一点苦痛, 帮助她成熟

别探听他的线索
别等待他会回头
别继续把心封锁
别躲在伤心里头

爱, 万一来了别错过

Baby let me love you down.

Just got home.

Penang trip was awesome. I have no idea how the drive there ended up so long, but we had fun talking so much nonsense we didn't realise that time had passed at all. Finally reached, got directions and realised that Penang isn't exactly as small as I always thought it was (haha).

Drove around food searching, and headed back to KL with a full tummy. Was too tired I passed out in the car without knowing and when I woke up, the sky was already dark - and baby Flo was still talking. I wonder how many hours had she been talking already.

Reached KL, got home to shower and went out again for dinner. And finally, home sweet home.

Exhausted is an understatement and nothing is sexier than sleep right now. Good night.

Bonne nuit mon chéri.

Oops, I did it again.

I am very sorry for the long disappearance. Have been busy/lazy.

Will be in Penang tomorrow. Will update soon.

Cheers :)

I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye.

I remember complaining so much about how terrible HELP is when I started going for classes there. Well, who could blame any of us who have been to Taylors and then HELP? Where we used to have an AC (Asia Cafe) just across the road and quite a handful of eye candies every now and then.

But HELP, the most "happening" place I would say, would be the only mamak in the middle of nowhere. Or technically, in the carpark. Yes, I didn't type wrongly, it is the carpark. It was like a monopoly business, really. Cuz there was nowhere else us students could hang out in around that area. Unless we were willing to take the shuttle bus all the way to the main campus in PBD. And that's a lot of haste.

Time flies, and it scares me how fast it goes by. I still remember walking into the ugly building one morning in January 2009. No words could describe how relieved I was when I saw two familiar faces in the lecture hall: Pei Ling and Mia. Back then we hardly talked, but at least there were still some people I know from Taylors.

Finally Flo baby woke up and well, despite being the first day... I sneaked out from the hall. Yes, I skipped the welcoming talks and the rest of the nonsense for lunch with Flo. Heheh

Fuck. I was so skinny back then :(



:)

Things were very fine and I was happy. We even had our Orientation Night and I still remember our theme was "Back To School."

From someone during that night :)

Well, there's always this saying that good times don't last usually. Yeah, shit happened... but that's a different story altogether. March came along and we were all hyped up about our first annual Law Ball.

Us with our Criminal law lecturer :)



Hoho. Pei Ling, I bet even you forgot how you looked like back then right ngek ngek



Kellie, Flo, SK, Armand and Ashley.



I miss those days :(

Well, it isn't always about fun all the time. Not long later, we had to face our very first legal assessment: Negotiation, Client Counseling and finally, Mooting.

Right before Moots



With my best partner ever through Year 1 and 2, Hiu Kei.

Then somehow (I couldn't remember what for already), we had this Vintage & Bake Sale organised by us Year 1's.

When Qi was still around.



Mia, Jedwind, Serena, Wei Ling, PL, Michelle, Delia, Jayvian and Crystal.



The 4 of us. Sigh :(



A silly shot :)



Kellie so cute with her cupcakes! Hahaha

Just when we thought life was hard, we moved on to Year 2. Horrible would be an understatement, seriously. Year 1 seemed like paradise in comparison to the subjects we had to deal with in Year 2.

Year 2 Orientation :)



Jokers x)

It was less fun compared to the Orientation Night we had back then in Year 1. Year 2 was hellish, but it was also the year where everyone slacked. People started missing classes and unfortunately, we lost a very great lecturer: Mr. Ananth. He was our Land and Tort law lecturer. He taught us well and everybody liked him. It was a sudden shock for each of us.

Since then, our timetable screwed up and well, the cycle of missing classes goes on of course. Oh and then there's Company classes. Ugh.

This is what we finally resorted to during classes.

And when we finally got really fed up of classes, we make spontaneous trips like this:

We left class at around 10-ish in the morning and took a bus up to Genting.



We're spontaneous like that. And that's how torturing classes are.



Stupid woman :P

Oh, and did I mention that we spent hours in this place on an almost daily basis just to rush our assignments?

Our All American Rejects concert! :D

Bloody hell, I could see how I grew (sideways) from the beginning of Year 1 till Year 2. Fuck. And of course, we partied more than ever this year.

Mia's 21st.

Then there was our annual Law Ball again, this time, we went as Year 2 students. I remember that PL and I used to go over to Delia's to help out on the decorations through the entire week when we had assignments due very very soon. (Well, we search for reasons to procrastinate very often).

Those days were really fun, despite us being very tired and exhausted. But it was worth it :)

With Dickson



Joey & Maxine



With Ms. Kath again. No doubt on who's the favourite lecturer ;-)



Camwhores in us :)



With the boys

Seriously, how did 2 years pass by so quickly? Different people left and came around. And the things you least expected to happen always tend to happen. Many stories told, many secrets unfolded. There have been betrayal, and there were those who stuck around. It wasn't a bad 2 years there, really. I definitely have been upset, but I can't say that I didn't have fun there either.

I'll miss everyone of you, definitely. Let's hope we all make it through to Year 3 and (hopefully) become lawyers who kick asses :)

And if you have read all the way till here, congrats. You deserve a pat on your back. Cuz I personally think it was too long of a post and I doubt anyone (as lazy as me) would bother reading all the way till the end. You're such a nice person.

x

Can't find a reason to keep holding on, now that the love is gone.

Nobody likes to feel like a burden to anyone.

I wished you'd knew.

So take a look at my girlfriend, she's the only one I got.

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Sorry, you just gotta watch Gossip Girl to get this joke lol.

You're just too good to be true, can't take my eyes off you.

So my eye allergy went off in time for my one month partying streak to continue last night.

Got a spontaneous call from Pei Ling and voila, our plan was on. Rootz it was. Crazily packed on a Saturday night. The dance floor was too small (or rather, it isn't too much for me to say that they didn't even have a proper dance floor). The songs were fine at first but towards the end after 2.30am, the songs turned shitty. But it was fun due to the company we had :)

Sigh, the shit that Pei Ling and I come up with when there's alcohol in the system haha.

We all love mirrors, don't we?



The Ang sisters ;-)



Funny as it is, after knowing her for more than 10 years, it was actually my first night partying with her.



PL and Jolene, our driver of the night heeheeeee



kiss kiss.



:D:D

Woot! Someone's landed in Penang already! ♥ ♥

落花有意随流水，流水无情恋落花．

Sweet dreams are made of these, who am I to disagree?

This was never the way I planned, not my intention
I got so brave, drink in hand
Lost my discretion, it's not what I'm used to
Just wanna try you on, I'm curious for you
Caught my attention.

I kissed a girl and I liked it
I hope my boyfriend don't mind it
It felt so wrong, it felt so right
Don't mean I'm in love tonight.
I kissed a girl and I liked it.

♫♪♫♪~

*

You make me wanna kiss you,
For the first time in my life.

Oh how sweet when
you're the only exception.

Baby let me love you down, there's so many ways to love you.

A month ago - J (NYC)

Today - CM (Glasgow)

Saturday - F (Manchester)

Next Saturday - X (Brisbane)

♥ ♥ ♥

Got a surprise call from Chingy yesterday afternoon and the first thing she told me when I answered was "I'm coming home tomorrow!!! I'm waiting for my friend to pick me to the airport now so I'm calling you." I was like wtf? (Cuz I was under the impression that she's coming back late June). So this was what the suspense in her latest blogpost was for. Cheeky bitch.

Now if only M doesn't need to go back to Vietnam and PL can constantly come to KL.

Ah, this is what we call life.

On an unrelated note, damnn. Doubt my partying streak can continue this week. Supposed to be partying with Chingy (and the rest of the girls) tonight after she lands in an hour's time, but I woke up to a swollen left eye. Some weird unknown allergy thing I guess. And it hurts. Like a bitch.

I'll never walk into a party with my glasses. No way. We'll see. Hopefully the swollen part will subside by tonight. We have a long day to go. Yeah, hopefully.

Sweet dreams are made of these
Who am I to disagree?

I could use a dream or a genie or a wish.

- to go back to a much simpler place than this.

Today's the first day I'm rotting at home doing completely nothing at all since my holidays have started. I'm quite not used to it, the fact that I'm actually staying at home wtf. After hours of whoring/stalking (that's what my friends put it) around Facebook and Twitter, my level of lifelessness took a deeper plunge.

Meme time! It's been quite a while since a meme last appeared on my blog anyway heheh.

So, there's a challenge to write a letter to each of the people/things(?) listed below. So yeah, fellow readers, (who, hopefully may be as lifeless as I am right now) happy reading.

• Your Best Friend
  Dear best friend, I personally don't think there's a need for me to write you this letter cuz by the time I'm done writing what's on my mind, seal it and post it over, you'll be home already. I love you :)
  
  
• Your Crush
  Dear crush, I really don't know who you are. I have yet to meet you.
  
  Wait, does Chuck Bass count? If yes, see you in your limo. And then, we'll do some talking ;-)
  
  
• Your Parents
  Dear parents, I am sincerely sorry for spending considerably more time being outside than at home. And I'm sorry for being the black sheep. I wished I could've done better, really :(
  
  
• Your Sibling (or closest relative)
  Dear cousin, I wished I could do some charity and donate you some of my excessive fats. You need em. Boo.
  
  
• Your Dream
  Dear dream, could you please tell me why I always forget about you the moment I wake up? And why can't you last longer all the time?
  
  
• A Stranger
  Dear stranger, hi. Nice to meet you.
  
  
• Your Ex Boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush
  アンタへ, ありがとう。いつまでも心の中に居る、心の一番底の所。時々頭に浮かべるけど・・・まあ、もう大丈夫だ。もう傷つけないよ、やっと。
  
  
• Your Fav. Internet Friend
  Dear... wait, what the hell? I don't have one :O
  
  
• Someone You Hate Most
  Hmmm, I wished I'll never have to see your slutty face again and shut the fuck up. Thank you.
  
  
• Someone That's Not In Your State/Country
  Dear you two jokers in Brisbane and Scotland, come home. And please do not miss your flights anymore heheh.
  
  
• The One That Broke Your Heart The Hardest
  Dear my once upon a time love, do you know how it feels like loving someone that's in a rush to throw you away? It's shit. But then again, thanks for everything - all the good and the bad that you've ever done :)
  
  
• The Last Person You Kissed
  You're amazing :)
  
  
• The Last Person You Made A Pinky Promise To
  Dear last person who I made a pinky promise to, I'm sorry. I think I most probably broke it haha!
  
  
• Someone That Changed Your Life
  Dear someone who changed my life, I think people would say it's for the worst but... oh well. I can't say I'm exactly very happy with what I've become but... I'm pretty sure this change had made me live life more than I ever did I guess :)
  
  
• Some That You Want To Tell Everything To, But Too Afraid To
  Dear M, I wished I could've told you everything. I really wanted to so much that it feels like I'm breaking apart sometimes. But I really can't bear to tell you the nonsense I do occasionally and how messed up of a person I am. You'll most probably be so disappointed in me. And that's the last I want to see.
  
  No, for the love of god, I am not doing drugs. Mind you.
  
  
• Your Reflection In The Mirror
  Dear honey,
  Sometimes I feel like I don't know you anymore. What have you done and what are you doing?
  On certain times, I wished you could be somebody else. Maybe you could be happier.
  Most of the times, I wished you had a nicer smile. Then you could smile like nothing matters.
  All the time, I wished you looked thinner. Then... maybe you could look dazzling.
  
  But too bad.
  
  
  Love, me. x
  
  

Finally, I'm done. I bet you did not bother reading everything hah! I'm that bored, sue me. Okay, it's been hours since I've been resting my ass on the chair facing the laptop. Time to move about and hopefully, find something to occupy myself with. Tata.

Because your love, your love, your love is my drug.

And I wanna fall in love with you again.
I don't have to try,
It's so easy
Who needs to pretend?

Let's pretend baby, that you've just met me.

So, exams are over. And the partying continues, on the regular weekly basis. Seriously, since they got home... the parties have been going on for a month straight already. Tsk tsk, bad influence.

Oi, Xinny Chen and ChingMun Lee. Faster get your asses and nen nen's (haha inside joke!) home. THEN we'll party. I can't imagine how it'll be. God knows what nonsense we'll most probably come up with in the club hahaha.

So it was hopping around around Phuture and Velvet @Zouk on Friday night itself with the usual suspects.

Free soulsss!!

Free from the invisible prison called exams :(



Some of them boys :)



Seriously, this picture rocks haha.

His expression just goes so well with the top.



PL and Soung. I just find this picture cute heheh



Usss!!



Oscar, Kellie and PL.

PL looks so nice here :D:D



The infamous J :)

Oh and also our dear Jesus *inside joke*



Soung! :D

Sigh, my sucking up days. Sometimes they work. But most of the times, they don't.

T___________T



PL and Bruce, the under-aged drunkard :P

Haha and speaking of this, there's a funny story to this and I can't stop laughing every time I think of it. I remember I was in an intoxicated state, not registering completely what PL was telling to me that moment itself when it happened. But it was funny, really. I laughed hard when I was told about it again later that night when I was more towards sobriety haha. So much for running after a drunk under-aged huh? ;-)

But it's okay. At least you didn't faint like some woman we know during our last visit to Poppy heheh :P

Where to this week? :D

You're way too beautiful girl, that's why it'll never work.

Beautiful girls, all over the world
I could be chasing but my time would be wasted
They got nothing on you, baby.

They might say hi, and I might say hey
But you shouldn't worry about what they say
Cuz they got nothing on you, baby.

*

Thanks a lot, love. For getting me addicted to this song for so long.

T______________T

I'm only gonna break break your, break break your heart.

Exams are officially over.

Plan up the trips.

Penang is a must, when baby Flo's home.

In only 8 days' time.

Back to HIMYM and Gossip Girl.

And most importantly,

Bring the parties on.

tuks tuks tuks tukssss

In my head, you fulfill my fantasy.

One. More. Paper.

Just one more effing paper, and I'm done.

Till August at least.

Tomorrow night.

We shall put on those heels, that pretty dress,

and rock that body.

Oh, with alcohol of course.


Let the countdown begin: 28 hours.

*

Honestly, I am no longer in the exam mood anymore. I'm so reluctant to memorize and cram things into my head already. Hit my head please, someone.

Now baby save me from the game before it plays me.

The kind of feeling when,
Your fingers dance around my skin.
Slowly, but teasingly,
In a messy rhythm only you would know.

And all I could do,
Was to whisper your name to your ear,
wishing to remember every detail of you.
As if I might forget the next minute.

The whole world closes down slowly
Every moment our lips meet.
It felt so substantial, yet so surreal.
Like an eclipse.

How could I get enough when you'd kiss me in that way,
In that way I thought I've forgotten.
Oh I hate the irony that we seem so far apart,
when we are just a dust away.

We waste Time like it's air.
As though it'll never outrun us one day.
But what else could we resort to, but to linger around?
Waiting for Time to slowly take its toll on us,
And possibly wait for a chance we'll choose to miss again.

They've got nothing on you baby, you said.
Sweet nothings said to every rose you seek.
With that careless smile of yours.
But who could understand
This unrestrained love, this beautiful mess?

You're a sinner, and I'm your prisoner.
And you me.
What more is left to say?

All we could do is to blame serendipity.

We'll fly sky high one day
Chasing after these fleeting lights.

*

Ah, a very long overdue post I've always wanted to post but didn't get to due to the time constraints (Exams!). Now that it is a night before my Company paper (and I have zero knowledge about Company), I decided to procrastinate, or rather - find excuses to avoid studying. And therefore, finally settled down to pen (?) something like this down.

You know, there's this funny Chinese saying which could literally be translated as "not knowing how to write the word 'Death'." I guess it applies to me right now. Why oh why did I get myself into a Law course when it is so much easier to fail than to pass?

I'd give it all up but I'm takin' back my love.

So this was what happened on the first day of exam, an hour before my Land law paper.

*phone rings*

Secret Lover: "Eh where are you?"

Me: *waves to car*

"Hereee."

Secret Lover: *turns*

"Oh my god, you look like shit. Hahaha!"


T________________________T

Very sweet first thing to say to me after not seeing me through the weekend. And yes, this is what exam stress does to you. You'll end up walking around in a zombie-ish state with horrendous dark circles around your eyes, you don't care what you're wearing, and you don't mind wearing glasses everywhere.

Very traumatizing.

Can't nothing hold me down, I'm gonna touch the sky.

I know I shouldn't be blogging right now. I'm sorry, but these songs really make me feel like partying. Well, have been studying the whole day today, literally. But my head refuses to take in anymore. Despite the fact that it hadn't really been taking in a lot anyway. It's like I suffer a short term memory loss all of a sudden. I forget everything the next moment I read them.

I need to party.

Really. A crazily intense party. God, please grant me a better liver.

And she's an actress, but she ain't got no need.

Exams in 2 days' time. Tenants in common, joint tenancy, leases, licenses, co-ownership... I'll make love to you all night. Seriously, who the fuck cares about minority shareholders or directors' duties? Cuz personally, I really can't be arsed about it.

Sorry I just had to rant. I'm dying here. And I think my notes and textbooks are either in Greek or Latin, disguised in what looks like English. Cuz I can't understand shits.

*

It's not that I don't treasure, and it's not that I didn't consider.
It's just that you were too selfish to bother.
I've tried hoping it was just my head trying to confuse me.
But you proved me wrong.

So I'll play dumb and watch you play your game.
I'll even play according to your cards.
And I'll wait till you take off that mask.
Cuz they say that silence is golden.

But I really wish, that you were never like this.

There are just times when people get fed up of things.
Cuz that's when they snap.

*

Nothing on you was nothing without you.

Sugar, oh honey honey.

ね、恋

この美しい罪に溺れましょう？

Lets drown in this beautiful sin together,
...or did we already?

I stayed at home like the good girls do.

My heart is eating me from the inside.

Someone just shoot me, please.

Nothing seems more beautiful than death right now.

But the guilt in your voice gives you away.

Woot, a long forgotten song which randomly played while I was studying.

This song brings back lots of memories, seriously. Those days when Xin, Chingy and I would go to RedBox and scream this song out loud. And Chingy making us sing the background (while she sings the vocal) AND repeating that song for millions of times. We even had a conspiracy to drive a van and scream this song (for Chingy's sake) in front of Mr. You-Know-Who motherfuckersonofabitch's house.

Those days when we were so lame, and came up with shitty ideas haha! Oh, we often referred it as "those gay days" haha.

Sigh. I miss you guys now. Come back and we'll sing this song again okay? :D

Funny how much each of us has grown, mentally. We have each went through tough phases at that time, fell down, got back up, just to fall down again... and the cycle continues. Try reading our old conversations on MSN, they're bloody hilarious. I swear, there's nobody else whom I could talk all such bullshit to in this world anymore haha.

Imagine who would message you out of the blue on MSN telling you that there was a fat rat outside the window, and she and her housemates wanted to feed the poor thing with beer and weed. And telling you to club virtually with her online. And imagine who would still share the same curse with you despite all these years and the great distance, threatening me that I'd die if she does. Yes, they're cute like that ♥

Then this was also the same song which the Cousin screamed in RedBox too when she had her bit of what you call a "tough time". Guess there's really a strange fate with this song huh? :)

Now, let's all sing this again one day when all are home. Am missing all of you :)

You can tell me that there's nobody else,
You can tell me that you're home by yourself,
You can look into my eyes and pretend all you want
But I know, your love is just a lie.

How does it feel when you kiss when you know that I trust you?
And do you think about me when he fucks you?
Can you be more obscene?

Our all time favourite line, my darlings ♥

Oh, and there's also Better In Time!! x

My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating.

Actually, I have no idea why I'm blogging right now.

Was burying my face (partially) into my Land law notes when I finally decided to pull myself out of co-ownership before I die of insanity. I know, technically you don't die of insanity but... trust me, law kills. It's crazy seeing the Year 1's sit for their finals now, knowing that I'll be in the same position 6 days from now.

It freaks me out big time. But on the bright side, I can party and have fun without the guilty part of me buzzing in my head reminding me that I should study. It's annoying, really. Everytime I'm out, I bring my book - for safety purposes. Or rather, just to make myself feel better. And right now, I feel bloody insecure without my textbook wtf. (I left it in the Secret Lover's car and he decided to be absent from classes today due to some reasons). Honestly, I feel like shit right now. Or maybe beyond shitty. Actually, the thought of pulling out last minute and differing till the next resits did cross my mind for a bit. And I actually did give it a thought. But no, I can't. Not like I'm not enough of a denial freak already.

I.have.to.study.

Came home early to study and I ended up whoring over Facebook for god knows what reasons, constantly clicking on the Refresh button hoping that some notification would pop out. Oh, and Twitter too. I guess my brain just sub consciously finds its own excuses to procrastinate. Meh.

Obviously, I've also considered sleeping. Had a massive dilemma on whether to sleep "for a bit" or to continue studying. This time, my conscience overtook me and I decided to open up my notes. By the way, I've been told that I sleep too much. Apparently I have a sleeping pattern which I don't even know of, where I sleep between the hours of 4pm~7pm and it's often referred to as my "nap time". Wtf.

It's pouring outside, with scary thunder. And also lightning. I freaking hate it every time there is thunder... It scares the hell outta me, like seriously. And it isn't much better especially when I'm home alone. Boo.

You know what? I can't wait for my post exams plans. I'll either die of insanity or anxiousness, I swear.