I'm Your Inspiration

I have a very random friend.

Was talking to Ron when he suddenly talked to me about clubbing.

Ron: If you don't club, won't you feel left out?

Me: No, why should I club just to feel "happening"? You don't club for that. I can still enjoy with my friends even if I don't go clubbing.

And thus,

Stupid la. He's became so hyper ever since he's came back from UK.

"Yer, you're seeing Ching Mun? I haven't met her in agesssss."

"as if you've just met me yesterday."

Stupid.

Very good friends I've got. hah

10 More Days

...and I'll be a student in HELP University. I'll need help. wtf. That's like the lamest joke that every HELP students tell.

Registered today in HELP and Orientation starts on 2nd January 2009. This time with nobody to accompany me during the boring orientation. I had Jia Xin with me when we just started Taylors. Sigh.

Met Jon there when I was registering. Jon Lam. not the other one. My mom used to compliment him last time back in high school. Wtf. I think my mom has a fetish for Jonathans. I realised she complimented each Jonathan friend of mine.

T______________________T

Oh well.

Jon, promise di wan ah. Orientation, we run away from the speeches. I might intro you to my other hot friend doing Psycho also. :D

my ugly student ID.

why must all student IDs be ugly?

my Taylors' one was worst.

- till you get home on the 2nd.

Bittersweet

Perhaps it's the alcohol. Perhaps it's from the heart.

I choose to believe in the latter.

It was sweet.

- told you I'm easy to please.

Sanctuary, In Your Arms.

I wanna run away and seek comfort

in a place where I can fit into, a place where I belong.

- anyone, run me away even for just a day.

Insomnia

I can't sleep. It's so late, I wanna sleep. I need sleep.

My eyebags. My dark circles. My zombie look. I even scare myself every morning when I wake up.

But I just can't sleep.

Screw this. I don't want little miss despicable to see this, but I don't wanna type it in Jap. It's too easy.

有时我真的不懂, 我算什么?

天平总是不能平衡, 往往让蝎子迷失方向, 失去了理智. 天平的突如其来, 让蝎子不知所措.

心...虽然说是不见了. 可是, 真的一点也给不了蝎子吗?

或许不该执着. 或许只能等. 等天平把心找回来.

天平跟蝎子之间总是有说不出的距离

到最后,还是只能自我安慰 - 别想太多.

想太多, 受伤害的还是自己.

蝎子, 你真的比不起.

现在的我只懂得

一定要懂得体谅他.一定要学会了解他.一定要试着接受她.

心配しないで、時間をあげるから。約束してた。

或许你不懂... 每次说话时,你总是不知不觉中提起她

或许你不懂... 每当你提起她, 表情总是会变得不一样

或许你不懂... 看见你这样的我, 虽然笑着, 心里却是多么的痛.

我的心, 我的感受, 那么不重要吗?

只要你一点点的安慰, 就能够让我开心了.可是, 为什么你就是那么不愿意?

或许你会觉得我这样会很幼稚, 可是只想要你懂

幼稚只是因为喜欢.

好きだからガキっぽくなちゃった。

I'm sorry to those who can't read Chinese. This is really emo that it's bad for health. :) Chinese is the hardest language I can come up with, sorry. It's just not meant to be read by everyone.

- I know you can't read everything, that was my point. The last line would be enough :) I'm sorry.

Keep Bleeeeeeeding.

Yes, keep bleeding till your heart is numb. I'm not joking. Perhaps, a numb heart won't be able to feel emotions. :)

Okay, it's also in relation to my day today lol. Had an awesome day with my two darlings - Xin and Ching Mun. Ching Mun darling skipped class for me, how sweet of her.

It's been so long since we've had so much fun together. The last time was like - err, high school?

wtf. I swear I'm getting ugly. I don't know wtf happened to my eyes that they're hideous now in pictures. If it's not the eyebags, it'll look swollen. Bitch. :x

And by the way, we met Cik Zakiah and Mr Sheat! Our dear Biology and Chemistry teachers hahaha. They said we changed a lot (did we? perhaps its the make up haha) and Cik Zakiah only remembers my name... err, was I that naughty?

While waiting for Xin to come join us, Ching and I lined up to buy tickets. The line was so frikkin' long it was all the way till McDonald's! But it felt like just 5 minutes.

Reason: We camwhored our way through.

We looked up, and were like "oh cool, it's our turn already. So fast." wtf.

just one of the gazillion pictures taken.

sorry, I really look horrid :x

We watched Wild Child. Not bad :)

She's pretty :)

After that, we went off for lunch. Was on the way to Zanmai when we walked past ShiLin, we decided to eat there and ordered everything they had in the shop.

Clockwise: Egg Crepe, Seafood Tempura, Mee Sua, some Crispy Chicken Rice.

Finally, Xin came. Ching wanted to develop pictures of her boy boy :)

waiting for Ching.

Xin was about to candid me :p

waiting for Xin to check out her heels in Nose.

Damnit. I still bought heels lar. Was waiting for Ching this morning, and I ended up buying two pairs of heels. Blame my legs for walking in :x

We wanted to kill time, and off we went to Red Box. Miracle it didn't rain :D

we're just short petite. :3

Mind the Tall Woman.

She's just a passerby :D

Ching: make love in this club

Xin: ey ey ey

wtf. I was laughing like mad.

i don't know what i was doing -_____-

CM screamin in the background:

your love is a lieeeeeeee

I look like some happy girlfriend leaning on my lesbian lover ❤

I swear this was candid. Yuck. Why is my bone sticking out so disgustingly?

Ching: you can stand under my umbrella

Me: ella ella ella

Xin: eh eh eh eh

Yes, Ching was still screaming in the background.

This kept them happy.

Ching, it doesn't work on your sore throat.

Actually, I was on the phone outside the room when I suddenly heard frantic screams.

IF I WAS A BOYYYYYYY

I turned around, it was the two of them

-_____________-

It was so old-school that day.

Ching Mun started it with I Lay My Love On You followed by I Want It That Way. Yea, Backstreet Boys.

Then it was My Love from Westlife. Ching insisted on singing it twice. How Do I Live, Lucky, Because of You and of course, we still sang new songs lol.

We ended it with Truly, Madly, Deeply. Our all time favourite :)

I don't know when this was taken but GOOD, can't see my fugly eyes.

We couldn't find Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade

:(

The emo part of our hearts could have screamed more.

I like the lighting here.

And... that was my day :)

Sometimes, they just make my day. It's always the best way to lift your mind off sad happenings.

- If only I had Them everyday, perhaps - just perhaps, sadness might have some mercy on me and ease my heart which was taken away by You.

Royal Matters

Finally, I've managed a date with my long lost darling. Florence, the other princess ❤

It has been ages since I last met her. We used to see each other almost everyday last time. :(

The minute she saw me, she started laughing and said

"Wtf. I can't believe I'm seeing youuuu."

Yea, you're not. It was all a dream haha. Joker la her. But the time we had together was so short. :(

I really miss her. Our bitching sessions. Our rushing for class sessions. Our eh let's skip Economics sessions. Seriously, we only turned up for like 1/4 of the entire year's Economics classes. Sigh. Those were the days in Taylors. :(

Nevermind, I'll be joining her in HELP soon! Then we can hang around and be late, again.

Flo: When you come, I think I'll skip class to see you again.

Me: Haha wtf. I think I might end up doing the same too.

Flo: Yah. Then the cycle happens again. But this time, we hang around in G.

Me: wth is G??

Flo: It's the so-called happening place.

Me: Hahaha wtf. So it's like the platform in AC la??

Flo: Yah.

Hahaha. Wth. She even started planning ahead already when I join her in January. She even thought of differing her course to join me and restart her entire course all over again. This is why I love her so much lol.

Two hours is really not enough. Sigh. I don't mind spending the entire day with her - cuz it will never be enough :)

Flo: How old is he?

Me: 26.

Flo: EH! MY TYPE! I LIKE I LIKE! *beams*

Me: Yes, i know you do. -_______________-

She's still so funny lar. Apparently HELP is such a saddening place. I miss Taylorsss :(

sorry, no pics of us together.

I look too horrid.

I think I've became ugly-fied recently. I tend to look fugly in pics nowadays.

Coffee Bean's Chiken Pie.

my breakfast, lunch and dinner :)

The outer layer is way too crispy. People who know me will definitely know that I am very bothered about table etiquette. Look at how messy mine ended up. -___________-

'Twas my day :)

- what is it that is still missing? Don't tell me it's the heart, cuz you'll never know how sad I'll be. I really don't know :(

...And A Happy New Year

The year is coming to an end, or should we say - a whole new year is just around the corner.

This year has been a rather unproductive, emo-fied year for me. Reflecting back on the things I did through the year, I felt bad. I've done nothing much - and that's not good. Ever since I've finished my A-Levels, I've been lazing around rotting at home for like - half a year? Well, I have a partner in crime who also rotted for half a year. :D

What have I done through the half year period?

After kissing my Economics book goodbye happily in June, I've been surviving on those HK dramas everyday - name the show and I can tell you what happened from beginning till end.

At least I didn't completely waste my time, I still attended my Japanese classes twice a week. Then September came and I had to go for classes thrice a week, Saturday classes :D:D

Oh ya, I also worked. I worked with Ching Mun and we made hundred bucks a day doing nothing.

Then, there was the duration where I was a crazy emo freak. I cried day and night till my eyeballs almost fell out, looking like some swollen-eyed goldfish everyday and still having no idea where my contact lenses went. That was bad. Sigh. Nevermind, the Sun will always shine again after the rain and the rainbow will appear to make me smile :)

And December, I'm here typing this, looking back into my entire year. Almost a week more and it's Christmas babes! Thought of how to celebrate your Christmas yet? :D There's the beautiful fireworks! /omg. I wanna watch it in Curve! :( :(

Talking bout celebrating... New Year will be right after Christmas! What about New Year's Eve? Countdown in KL sucks, it's always so crowded. Yuck. My mum betrayed me by suddenly telling me that she has a colleague's wedding dinner to attend, and my betrayer dad may most prolly not be in KL. I guess I'll just watch the fireworks alone by the balcony on New Year's Eve. wtf. So sad lah !!

T_________________T

- smuggle me away, anyone?

It Could Have Been Perfect...

I really think I can already work in Mid Valley. Have been going there so often in one week. I would be there again this Weds

My very random cousin asked me in the middle of the night:

"Let's go Mid Valley tomorrow. I wanna buy Christmas presents."

Fetched her from her house 8 hours later and off we went. It's been ages since I've went out with her - and we're becoming more and more alike -________-

well, she's screwed up her fringe like mine too :)

Had lunch at Zanmai

the only picture I was satisfied with.

cuz you can't see me clearly :x

cousin's.

Mine.

We like the same food too -_______-

She ordered so much food and doesn't get fat. I really felt like slapping her when it came to the point when she said "if only I could gain some weight. I don't ask much, just 5 kg will do."

Skinny bitches :p

- the sky had no stars that night, but it doesn't matter. Having you by my side would be just as fine. A thousand stars wouldn't make it better if I didn't have you by my side.

By Your Side

I'm addicted to another song now :x

Soba Ni Iru Ne (Be By My Side) by Thelma Aoyama feat Soulja

*Jy, I know you don't like it :)

The rhythm is good, and the lyrics are pretty cool too. It's about LDR :)

あなたの事　私は今でも思い続けているよ

いくら時流れて行こうと　I'm by your side baby いつでも

So　どんなに離れていようと

心の中ではいつでも一緒に居るけど　寂しいんだよ

So baby please ただhurry back home

Baby boy　あたしはここにいるよ　どこも行かずに待ってるよ

You know that I love you　だからこそ　心配しなくていいんだよ

どんなに遠くても変わらないよこの心

言いたい事わかるでしょ？

あなたの事待ってるよ

I'm still thinking of you all the while

So no matter how far apart we are

No matter how time passes, I'm by your side

We're together in my heart, but I'm still lonely

So baby please just hurry back home

Baby boy I'm here, I'm not going anywhere and just waiting for you

You know that I love you

That's why you don't have to worry

No matter how far apart we are, my heart won't change

Do you understand what I'm trying to say?

I'll be waiting for you.

❤

I'm too lazy, I'll just put direct translations. Sigh. Lazy lazy me.

- I'll make 6.5 into 9.5 one day.

I Have A Funny Dad

Apparently, there are a few types of Dads. There's the stereotyped ones where they're super strict, serious, scary and all. Then there's this type who pampers the child and buys him/her anything he/she wants. Lastly, there's this type where they enjoy insulting you, and talks crap with you.

Mine is the latter.

There's this thing which I realised lately, my dad isn't as blur as he seems he is. He says things behind my back! He takes the chance to gossip with my mum when he fetches her to work every morning while I'm sound asleep at home. How did I know everything? I have a spy :)

Case 1:

Dad: Eh, tell your daughter to stop wearing that shirt she wore yesterday. Quite revealing.
Mum: Aiya, never mind la. Her generation doesn't think it's revealing. We're too conservative.


When I wore that shirt - he just kept quiet and said nothing as if everything was alright.


Case 2:

Dad: Eh, your daughter change friend already ah?
Mum: What friend?
Dad: Nowadays right, someone calls her and she talks on the phone.
Mum: What's wrong with that? She's forever with her phone.
Dad: She speaks English and suddenly Japanese comes out. So weird.
Mum: Oh.
Dad: What "oh". I know you know.
Mum: Classmate.
Dad: very persistent Where got classmate call her? Doesn't seem like asking homework.
Mum: Aiya, up to her la. Not like you'll understand what they talking bout also.

But, he keeps quiet as if nothing is wrong and never asked a thing whenever I get calls and start speaking alienic language. My mum never betrays me :)


Case 3:
Me: Fetch me to class earlier, I meeting friend first.
Dad: Okay. Who you meeting?
Me: Friend.
Dad: You're already meeting in class what. Go so early for what.
Me: yam char
Dad: Sure a not? Why everyday yam char? Yam cha need wear so nice wan meh?
Me: I'm meeting Xin and Ching Mun.
Dad: Ohh.

Then he stops asking things.


Me: But later I meeting another friend after class. So come late ya.
Dad: This one sure classmate (he sounded damn sarcastic)


Case 4:

I was so worried my dad would scold me for buying so many pairs of heels. So I went and asked him one day whether would he be angry if I spent all my money on heels.

Me: Eh if I tell you I spent my money buying heels and didn't buy anything else. Will you scold ah?
Dad: No la. Up to you buy anything you want. As long as you're happy with it. Just don't just buy too many heels la, buy clothes too.

The next morning,

Dad: Eh, tell your daughter to stop buying heels. Ask her buy more clothes.
Mum: She doesn't bother bout clothes when she goes shopping with me. She only enters shoe shops.
Dad: Control her la.

.... Now my mum stops me from entering shoe shops. There goes my happiness in shopping :(

Case 5:

One night, my mum was scolding me and complaining that I was late. (Actually I wasn't. They were early) I was very ker lian there being scolded by her for no reason and my dad just kept quiet. The next day,

Dad: Eh, last night you kena kao kao.
Me: Ya. I wasn't late also. You come so early for what. Cannot drive slower ah.
Dad: I felt pity for you too. You got scolded for nothing haha.
Me: Then? You never help me. Keep quiet there act cool. I thought you also emo me.
Dad: No, I dare not la. Later I also kena kao kao. So it's best to keep quiet all the way.
Me: Then you leave me there kena fire kao kao la?
Dad: One being fired is better than two.
Me: .....

I feel so betrayed.

Nevertheless, I still love my family so much. They're just so cute sometimes. ❤

Another Random Day

'xin says: EH LET'S YAM CHA AT MV :D

and that was how it started. Called ChingMun, and off to meet them at 4.

Starbucks it was. Stupid lor. My fringe was in such a disastrous condition. The stupid clip betrayed me and snapped into half when I was fixing my hair :x

I can't wait till it gets long again.

Didn't take much pics. My face was too horrid, and the wind was so bad. I think that was the reason why my contacts were crazily dry later that day.

How can a meet up with them end with no pictures?

I think she was trying to dig Ching's nose. I was busy with something else:

fixing my hair. :x

she looks all quiet and good girl here.

but failed lor.

and this woman is whoring with my phone.

one of the many end product.

and as for me, I gave up.

and went off to buy another clip before going to class :D

Picture Of The Day,

Our cute goldfish.

This. Is. Good.

I wanna fly to Japan and buy all of them before Xin bombs it one day.

Xin, at least leave out the factory please.

- I'm glad you liked it, It'll just make my day. I hope it made yours too :)

Confession

I've read it over, and over. I've thought, and thought.

It's been 1 hour 40 minutes since then.

Hopefully I get it right this time.

ごめんよ。

多分compareしちゃったからイヤだった？

多分悪い事を言ったからイヤだった？

色々考えたよ、本当に。

I've tried putting myself into that situation and yes, it felt bad.

I've tried thinking... If you said that to me, I wouldn't like it too.

I might even get angry.

何も考えずにすぐ言っちゃった・・・ごめん。

ごめんよ。

ガキっぽいの事を言っちゃった

バカバカしい事を言っちゃった

I might still have not got it right, but this time,

ゴメン - バカな事を言ったから。

I know you think that it's the thought that counts desho?

もうrepeatしないから、許してくれる？

もうcompareしないから・・・

本当にアホだね、アタシ？

ー　私なりの力でアンタの顔に真の笑顔を描く。

Gifts and Prezzies

Christmas is just around the corner. :) Everywhere I see people busy buying and choosing gifts for their friends and family.

Received an early Christmas present last night. No, it's not from whoever you people think it is.

The perfume I wanted so badly!

Anna Sui Secret Wish (the green one)

Anna Sui Secret Wish Magic Romance (the pink one)

plus a few miniatures,

Flower by Kenzo

F for Fascinating - Salvatore Ferragamo

Into The Blue - Escada

Burberry London

I love love love love you who bought me this! :D

*see, i use love love love. so it really isn't who you people think it is*

and this, is my secret.

Hint: It isn't a gift I received.

so yea...should be able to guess right?

- If I could, I won't let it be a lonely Christmas this year.

Treasure Hunting

And so we went treasure hunting today. Xin came and joined me in my treasure hunt - it was so random. Met her and off we went to Borders cuz she wanted to search for books to read. /omg. Yea, Xin reading. We're a bunch of pretty surprising people sometimes. :D

see how happy she is when she is choosing her book.

all I did was to sit there, and started whoring with my phone - eventually deleting every pic.

I have sexy lips like Angelina Jolie's.

this picture is so cute haha

and now she's contented with the book she reached for.

look at her steam face. Wondering why? Cuz we found this book:

yeap, we wanted to know. But we still came up with the same conclusion.

Yeap, exactly What Men Want.

Ching Mun, I think we've found the perfect book for you. *check picture below*

*ignore Ho Kok Mun above*

Johnny Be Good. AHAHAHA!

perhaps, the book might also be ngam for another person.

The one witout the H

we spent friggin long in Topshop's Fitting Room.

I think the person would just assumed that we were a pair of lesbians who were desperate to make out. wtf.

and you know what's the best?

I've found it.

- and that was my day.