When You Think You're Tragical.

Heard a story from my Mom today when we fetched her back from work. She was talking about her day at work as usual, until she mentioned about her colleague.

Her colleague had a family, and she was only in her late twenties - or maybe early thirties. She had a husband and a daughter. They were a pretty rich family. Or rather, they did not have to worry about their bills or payments. Debt was never a word in their dictionary. Nothing could have been better.

Her husband, was the only son of the family. Being the traditional Chinese family, it was nothing surprising that her mother-in-law expected her to bear a second child for the family - this time, a Son.

They tried, and things went smooth. A month ago, she finally gave birth to a baby boy. The baby had some baby-problem thingy, and was discharged from hospital almost a week ago. Everything was bliss. Smiles were everywhere. Nobody else could be happier than they were.

Today, she was absent from work. Her baby boy died, next to her when she woke up in the morning. She slept on him, suffocating the baby - or she thought she did. It was like an angel, ignorant of the disasters on Earth falling straight into Hell. All fingers pointed at her, nobody was understanding. What could be worse than living in self-blaming? That she had indirectly caused her newly borned son's death.

It hurts one bad enough listening to it. My Dad and I fell silent after listening to the story, I couldn't catch what happened after that. I was lost in my own sea of thoughts.

I suddenly realised, how blessed we are to have our parents by our side, nagging us on how slutty we are (well, that's my case la. My mom never fails to comment that I dress like a whore). How blessed we are to have friends around us, laughing the days away with us.

How blessed we are to be alive.

How blessed we are to not be losing the people we love the most.

Yet, here we are, mourning at the slightest mistake in life. The slightest problem we have to go through in our stage in life. We shouldn't take things for granted, and be happy the way we are - just glad that we're living our life this very moment.

Damn, it's getting emo. Ok, I'll stop here. Be emo if you wish to, you can't help it I know. Be strong, and the phase will be over. Before you know it, you're better than you think you are.

And smile :)