Oh dream maker, you heartbreaker.

Heard Audrey Hepburn sing Moon River, man she's beautiful. I could spend all night googling/you-tubing about her (well, that was what I did last time). Okay, that's bloody random.

Suddenly got reminded of this song when I was talking to Benson (a.k.a Hon Sen) one day. tried listening to it, and voila! Got hooked up to it in no time. I wasn't really a big fan of this song previously, but the lyrics are pretty sad, like seriously.

如果说分手是苦痛的起点
那在终点之前我愿意再爱一遍
想要对你说的不敢说的爱
会不会有人可以明白？

If breaking up is the starting point of all these pain
Then I'm willing to love again before the ending point
The love that I wanted to tell but couldn't,
Would someone be able to understand it?

我会发着呆然后忘记你
接着紧紧闭上眼
想着哪一天会有人代替
让我不再想念你

I'll daze a little and forget about you
And then close my eyes
Thinking that someone will replace you someday
So that I won't miss you anymore.

How's that for being emo huh? :P
Well, it's Jay's song... what's new.

The most surprising thing is, I didn't get very much emo while listening to the song. Damn, I'm good :D

Edit:
Oh god. I got bored and now I'm watching magic shows online. Wtf. Yea, you're right. I've been stuck for an hour already goddamnit. Oh well, the magician's kinda cute anyway, in his shades and his tricks are amazing. He's a mix of Japanese, French and American - Cyril Takayama. Teehee. Oh oh, and his Japanese is perfect! :D

Thanks a lot. Sarcasm intended.

Where The Beginning Ends, And The End Begins.

MWR (Most Wanted ruumate) Finale finally went on yesterday. The event was organised at Loft @Heritage Row and started around 8 something. Well, the finalists had to be there at 2 pm already! It was a closed event (invitations only) this time and there was free flow through the night (well, it ran out towards the end hehe).

Overall, it was a fun night. Congrats to those who won and a a bunch of thanks to those who came xx.

Yes, picture time!

Kiwi, getting her hair done.

On a very unrelated note, is it just me, or is it that the guy in red looks a hell lot like the singer JJ Lin?




John! Quite unexpected that we had quite a few mutual friends.
Sigh, small small world indeed.



John, Kiwi, Pearlyn.
Us having our dinner/lunch before the event started



Pearlyn and Derek

Funny how Pearlyn seems to know Ron too :O



Neil, one of Jonny's Irish friends :)



Amanda and Kingston
I don't know what we were doing, but yeah.



Jonny and Flo
Sigh, she's leaving soon :(

Wait, they're both leaving soon :((



Andyyyy!



<3



Camwhoring :D



Yea, I'm light. Stfu.



Camwhoring, again :P



He's getting bitchier, I don't know why :P



James



Joey G and the lads :)



JOEY G!!
Okay, mind the excitement teehee



With Naomi

Yep, so that wrapped up the entire competition that had been running for almost 2 months now. A very big thank you to those who had been voting and supporting. Come to think of it, time really flies. It felt like we (the finalists) had just met each other at the rooftop of P1's headquarters yesterday and started mingling around. Then we got to know each other more and had lots of fun together in this period of time. And now, it's the end. Hope you guys had as much fun as I did throughout the journey, you bunch of awesome people. We'll always be the very first most wanteds :D

Finally, it's over.

Here's the complete album of the night :-)

Cuz he says I have chronic amnesia.

And I was kinda convinced about it actually, bitch.

So today, I was talking to the mysterious one on MSN and I don't know how we suddenly came to this topic. I swear, it's always some retarded talk, it's confirmed.

.....heart, kamen ❤ says (6:45 PM):

*i think im so used to forgetting things when im talking to you that now rite, i constantly feel as if i have smtg to tell you but forgot

Mr.D says (6:45 PM):
*which is exactly why yr kamen liew

.....heart, kamen ❤ says (6:46 PM):
*noooo. it doesnt happen -that- often when im talking to other ppl
*must be ur face

Mr.D says (6:46 PM):
*my face is nowhere near you
*dont blame me

.....heart, kamen ❤ says (6:46 PM):
*thats why it has a problem

WAHAHAHAHA. Okay, I don't know why but I started laughing to myself when I typed this. It was like the best char moment I've ever had in ages!

No, don't pity him. I'm always the bullied one, no doubt about it.

Psst. OMG, there's the time stamps! Okay, I got kinda excited about it when I first used it. See, I told you it's retarded. Must be his fault.

It's the one that I've tried to write over and over and over again.

Sing to me the song of the stars
Of your galaxy dancing and laughing
and laughing again.

Feeling kinda restless recently, or rather - I don't know how to start. Things are scattered here and there, not literally. And I'm freaked out enough lately that I dreamt of the same shit and got freaked out. FML.

Moving on to the less stressed part, honestly, I don't know what to feel anymore. Tell me, anyone? It's pretty sad to feel such a feeling. It's just... empty. Okay, not exactly but yeah, somewhere there.

Sometimes, I just happen to miss those times when we'd walk and talk, and nobody understands a word we're saying, having this puzzled look on their faces. Or perhaps, I'd just not seen enough to be saying this. But I'd still like to take it as our little privilege - just let me.

Cuz I've never been able to do that since.

And sometimes, I really wonder what goes on in that self-proclaimed awesome mind of yours. Baka.

It was nice seeing you again though. Till then :-)

Perhaps, this picture wouldn't make any much sense to anyone else but you.

I'm so happy to be able to say that it ain't that bad anymore.

I'm s-s-sorry, I didn't mean to break your heart.

Yes, heartbreaker you.

This song is so you.

This is bloody screwed up. Exams in 2 weeks plus.

I. Need. To. Study. Say. No. To. Procrastination.

Thanks Pei Ling. Thanks a lot for freaking me out.

Kingston

27th again. I guess, we're both similar in a way.

自分に向けない誰かへの思いで
ずっと
心が痛んでる
多分、そうだな？

まあ、知らない。

ただ、そうかも知れない。

有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达

And let me be, just for tonight.

Too many lies commited, too many games.

And it was the last Hennessy event of the year at Bukit Kiara Indoor Arena :-)

Bloody packed. And again, thanks Andy for getting me into the guest list, and thanks to James for the VIP pass (yes, I had two different passes that night -___- )

Free flow of Hennessy entire night with relatively good music. Met a few unexpected people and met a few new people. A fun night nevertheless :-)

Hell lot of pictures ahead.

Rozie, she's really nice :)



Amanda! First person I met that night

I'm taller than her, for once! :D



With Angeline, Adrian and Alton. All the A's.
It's a sign, my exams :D

Ya, I stole this picture.



Jamessssss!



Andrew, the one who mails us about everything in MWR :D



Ovi, she looks so cute in her pink dress :3



Omfg, guess who I met Chingy? Chun Kiattt!

The first thing I thought about was his Sunsilk hahaha wtf -____-



With Josh, Amanda, Derek, Jing Shia and James
(I'm really sorry I couldn't remember the one behind Amanda...)



Alton! Thanks for smuggling me into the other VIP section lol



Jinnnnnn! He never fails to remind me of a Simpson character ><

Guess who's home from kiwiland :)



Jonnyyy! Mr. J :-)



The crazy crowd I



The crazy crowd II



Derek, poser :P



Julian, one of the new people I met that night :)



With Jonny, Alton, Angeline and Erina (I don't know how to spell her name)



Yes, camwhores x)



Daniel, really funny guy



Ugh, Jonny's expression looks as if his legs are gonna break anytime.
I'm not -that- heavy okay, bitch.

One of the first things he said to me: I've lost 4 kgs.

And I'm nowhere near that, shit. This is definitely depressing.



Andyy! Didn't manage to take many pics with him :(



Adrian, another funny guy hehe
Him and Angeline, tsk. Evil people :P

They were a really fun bunch of people. T'was a fun night indeed.

All pictures in the Facebook album, as usual ;-)

Yes yes, study. Now stfu.

If I Never See Your Face Again.

Sometimes, I don't get you.

But it's okay, I don't have to. Doesn't matter anymore.
Perhaps, it's just an old habit of mine.

Pathetic.

你是好人, 也是个坏人
You're both the good and bad person
对我坦承 只为了朝她狂奔
Being truthful to me, just to head towards her.
不能放任 所以放了
I'm letting go cuz there's nothing I can do
这点痛我还能忍
This bit of pain, I'm still able to withstand.

容忍的人其实并不笨
Tolerating ain't foolish
只是宁可对自己残忍
Just that they'd rather be cruel to themselves instead.

- 坏人 by 方烔镔

Very sad lyrics, very sad rhythm. I swear, the Chinese really have a way to make things so crazily emo. They have this way of writing things in a way that it's bloody depressing. But when it's translated to English, the emo-ness in it disappears. Sigh.

Edit:

This is fucking pathetic. Enough is enough. Fucking wake up.

最可笑的人, 莫过于你.

Im fucking pissed at nobody, but my own pathetic self. Mind the language, I'm really sorry.

Psst. Jon, you might not know it - I don't know why either, but it felt much better when you said you do. Perhaps, it was just at the right time when I felt so fucked up. Thank you :-)

I Should Have Known.

I saw something I shouldn't. Cuz my mind is spinning right now.

Got me thinking again, another heap of shitty shit.

So fast huh, right after.

It's been days. And you didn't even bother.

Not like I'd expect anything, never.

Perhaps it's how I think it is, perhaps it isn't.

Doesn't matter. It's enough, whatever.

It's been bothering me for far too long, it's either this or that.

Perhaps the truth is clear, harsh but clear.

Not like it matters to you how I feel anyway, no?

And no one knows, why I'm into you.

Who said words would be essential when there's a song like this?

夜深了你还不想睡, 你还在想着他吗
你这样痴情到底累不累?
明知他不会回来安慰

It's late at night and you're still not sleeping,
Are you still thinking of him?
Aren't you tired being like this?
Knowing that he won't even come to comfort you.

只不过想好好爱一个人
可惜他无法给你满分
多余的牺牲他不懂心疼

You just wanted to love someone with your heart
But he'll never give you a 100
He'll never feel the pain
for the sacrifices you made

算了吧, 就这样忘了吧
该放就放, 再想也没有用
傻傻等待 他也不会回来
你总该为自己想想未来

Forget it, just forget it
Let go when you should, there's no point thinking anymore
Waiting like a fool, he'll never come back
It's about time to think for yourself.

不是你的就别再勉强

I can't wait till exams are over. I can already see myself somewhere (in a place which is yet to be decided) enjoying with Flo in our shades, maybe having some drinks - no, not beer... maybe cocktails, snapping pictures here and there, and maybe laugh our heads off at her reckless driving before she leaves for UK. Sigh, it's nice to dream haha.

And catch up with those leaving. Yes you, Chingy. You're always too busy for me - biatch and you're just leaving a day before Flo. Sigh, that's like getting dumped two days in a row. Damnit.

And Jon too (yes I mean you - the one who always has those one-fine-days. Not mr. grey). Betrayer. You should know why already. You're leaving earlier than them. So better make this one fine day an existing day, bitch. You still owe me lame jokes by the way. I still remember Ikano wtf :P

Oh, then there's results. Now that's screwed up, so let's put that matter aside first. I'm freaked out enough about my exams already, let alone the results. Jeez, this matter is really disturbing me.

I can't bloody wait.

Weak, that's her.

And nobody hears her silent cries.

And nobody hears her screaming inside.

Perhaps, it ain't blank after all.

There's a name, that she's yearning to call.
It just never comes out, no matter how hard she tries.

I really want to tell, about everything and anything.
Not just to anyone.
I really want to share, all my problems and worries.
About my life.
Not like you care anyway.

Perhaps, it's just a fucked up day.

If you really had the heart... If you really did...
It wouldn't be this way till today.

For a moment, I really thought I'd hate you.
Boy, what have you done?
To make my emotions become involuntary.

Cuz I can't seem to hate you, at all.

听海哭的声音
这片海未免也太多情, 悲泣到天明
叹息谁又被伤了心却还不清醒

翻着我们的照片, 想念若隐若现

Let lies be the truth, and let the truth be a lie.
Because...
Just because.

I think
I'll settle with being forgotten. It's easier than trying so hard
to forget.

It doesn't matter anymore what is real or unreal.
Cuz sometimes, there are just things we need not know.

Sometimes, I hate it so much that you'll always know how I'd feel.

*

听海哭的声音
Listen, to the weeping of the sea
叹息谁又被伤了心却还不清醒
Lamenting that someone is heartbroken again
写封信给我, 就当最后约定
Write me a letter, as a final promise
说你离开我的时候
Tell me how it felt when
是怎样的心情?
You left me.

*

想了又想
总是想不到怎么去形容
我们之间的距离或关系

那时的我
才发现原来自己
什么也不是.

可笑吧?

I've listened and listened, over and over again
And all I found
Were songs which pictured
The regret one had
When he left the one he shouldn't.

Why, oh why didn't they have songs for
those who were in the position of another,
a position where they were mere shadows
A rebound, substitute, fling - whatever you wanna call it.

Perhaps, they're just insignificant.

Yea, I suppose so...

Love can touch us one time and last for a lifetime.

Warning: This is a post with a relatively massive amount of vain self pics. It's my blog, sue me.

Pictures from Andy in my uniform outfit!

Try guessing where this was taken. Very easy answer :D

I think Chingy would say this looks cheeky. She always said I have a cheeky face since we were in high school :x

The rest of the pictures are in Facebook :-)

I'm so addicted to this piano piece now - The Truth That You Leave. It's really good.

I WIll Wake In The Infinite Cold.

You're a rockstar,
Everybody wants you.

Player, who could really blame you?

If only I could, I'd definitely use Veritaserum on you.

Heartbreaker, You've Got The Best Of Me.

Had been listening to this song recently. Not exactly such a new song but yea, it'll do.

Heartbreaker by Will.I.Am

Had a busy busy day yesterday. Mooting it was early in the morning, and I won my case :D

Yes, your future lawyers :D

Then it was lunch with Huai Bin over at Mid Valley. He's the most spontaneous person I've ever known, I swear.

And also one who's most prone to getting into an accident ><

Later on at night, it was Episodic: High School Murder Mystery at Aaliyah, Bukit Damansara. It's kinda like a themed party where everyone dresses up as a high school personality. Anything could be a murder weapon, and the murderer could be anyone.

Had some drinks, camwhored a bit and met some new people :-)

Kingston, the Geeky Nerd :D



Mel, the hot policewoman.



Andy, the Photographer :D



Yours truly, the student.



Left: The Investigator.
Right: Michael Jackson

Don't ask me why MJ's in school ,but yea.

Andy and I then left for Phuture @Zouk later on. Gosh, the crowd there was insane. There wasn't even space to stand, let alone dance.

But there was space to camwhore! :3



Can't really see the crowd from here though.



And that was my night.

Was dead tired the moment I got home and my legs were aching terribly, considering the fact that I've been walking around in heels from morning till the next morning (technically).

Yes study, I know.