不在乎天长地久, you said.

那,你只在乎曾经拥有吗？ I asked.

或许，那个人不是我吧．她真好.

I've asked myself the same questions, over and over again every night since. Trying my best to come up with an answer which I could be satisfied with. I end up looking at pictures, thinking of what happened then. Wondering what the possible truth could be. Nobody could give me an answer, neither did myself. For I do not know.

I wished I had never heard. I wished I was never told.
Then I would have one thing less to think about.

I'm tired. I'm really tired. It's too noisy, the deafening silence. Voices, they keep repeating themselves. People's speaking into my mind. And I still remember every word they said to me, good and bad. Yet, it's dead quiet. The feeling... It's sickening.

And there would be times when I'd drift away from reality. Many scenes running through my head. I tend to get caught in my own world I guess. Memories? No, I don't think I have seen them. Or maybe - just maybe, I have forgotten. Imagination? They hurt too much to be mere imagination. I don't think I'm making sense again, no?

I get happy, I get upset, I get worried. Who am I to still be worried so much? I really wonder. I'm nothing but a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you.

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray,
And I stood there loving you and wished them all away.
You never did give a damn thing honey but I cried,
cried for you.
what a rainy ending given to a perfect day.

- Cold As You by Taylor Swift.

For she was given too little, too little indeed. To have something worth remembering by you.

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我们都一样，心里还思念着某个人.
不一样的是
我思念的，是我失去的你.
而你思念的,
是以为失去了你的她，你放开的她．

We're just the same, our hearts are still missing someone.
The only difference is
The one I'm missing, is you whom I've lost.
And as for you,
She who thought she had lost you,
The one you once let go of.